Hey Kev,
Just saw your response to my question in the D/D forum. I wanted to say thanks for hoping for me. That way I can let go of it for now! Don't get me wrong, I still pray every day that God will heal me, my H and my kids. Unfortunately, when God answers prayer, it isn't always the answer we thought. I'm in a place right now where I believe God has directed me to work on my emotional health right now, and that means letting my H go. He is not in a place where Plan A means a whole lot to him. We are not divorcing immediately, so of course, deep down, in the very back of my brain, I still have hope. Just focusing in a different direction for a time. You know it's truly hard when the A is really over and they STILL don't choose the M. That's almost been harder for me than the fog with OW was! Anyway, I just really wanted to thank you. I haven't been posting cause I feel like I've failed in my previous attempts at recovery, so who wants my advice anyway? Take care and do know that I continue to hold you and your W in my prayers. [img]images/icons/smile.gif" border="0[/img] [img]images/icons/smile.gif" border="0[/img] <p>MOM

MOM-
<blockquote><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><hr>I haven't been posting cause I feel like I've failed in my previous attempts at recovery, so who wants my advice anyway? <hr></blockquote><p>Please don't sell yourself short! Go back and look at some of the posts you've made to me, and to a couple of others to which I've responded. I've said it before, and I'll repeat it. You've been an inspiration!<p>MOM, you've suffered through this ordeal in ways that I hope and pray I never will. I just don't think I'm strong enough to endure like you have. To some extent, I'm guaranteed to not be as deeply affected because I don't have children.<p>Please know that every word that you type here (or in D/D) is meaningful and important to those of us who read them.<p>I think you're doing the right thing right now by beginning to let go, by centering all your attention on you and the kids.<p>Please know that I keep you in my (nearly) hourly prayers. You're one of the first people here from whom I gained some encouragement and clarity. Without those kind words, I'm pretty positive I'd probably be in jail right now, and have had papers served on me. THANK YOU!<p>You are important.
Kev