So I finally had my first ray of good news yesterday. My WH does not know but I have access to his e-mail and have seen 3 letters sent to him by OW, since d-day. The first one was all sappy about how she knows he is where he needs to be, if it is meant to be between them the stars will all line up and it will be the most wonderfull thing ever. GAG!! The second one was a Thanksgiving card, IMO just to remind him she is there. The third one however was saying how he never e-mails her anymore. YEAH!! and she is mad at him. Saying he is not even being a good friend.<p>So finally I have some hope. He is not contacting her outside the office, and apparently limiting contact in the office as well. (She also said that an occasional smile would'nt hurt.) <p>He also actually touched me the other night. He is sleeping in the spare room, I had a horrible night mare and woke up with heart palpitations, the whole thing. I went to him and asked him if he would just hold me for a minute, and he did not hesitate, just opened his arms to me and let me stay there for as long as I needed. I did not try and have sex with him, even though I really wanted to. I just stayed there for about an hour loving having his arms around me and resting my head on his chest again. And he held me tight. It was amazing. <p>I finally left because I knew neither one of us was going to sleep and our 4 yo would wake up early. He told me I did not have to go, but I knew it was the right thing to do. I had already been pushy by going in there. If he had said, please dont go I would have stayed.<p>Anyway, just a small small ray of hope. I will hold on to anything at this point.
