ya know it been a few weeks since i had the baby and between spending my time taking care of him and my toddler i was content. my H (ws) was very attentive and depositing those love units like crazy and things were starting to look up for us. i admit to having some slight post pardum depression which i am coping with as best i can but overall things were well.<p>then about 2 days H and i were in the car on our way to the store ...listening to the radio.. and out of the blue h did this chuckle thing ya know like laughing at a private joke... i asked him what he was laughing at.... he said i was just thinking of the phone call with OWs H.... ( keep in mind that OWs H and WS were good friends) when he said that my heart plummeted... all i could think of was why the hell is h thinking of her?... via her H. he went on to say that OWsH had said that my h betrayed him and their friendship by having this EA with his W. i asked H what was so funny about that. his reply was that he heard that OW and her h were doing well and said wouldnt it be ironic if they repaired their marriage with MB?( Ow used to post to me here) my reply siad through gritted teeth ..i would be happy for them........ later that day H comment on my lurking here and said it was atrigger for me...........my mental thought oh ok this site is great for your little slut but not ok for me although i kept my mouth shut .. since this conversation i have been feeling miserable, like back at dday... depressed and thinking of them , thinknig that i got pregnat to save my marriage even though it was a surprise. now i find myself wanting to avoid H and i would rather spend my time alone whereas right before this conversation all i wanted was to be near him touching him, hugging him.. showing and recieving affection. <p>
so im at a severe setback friends. tell me this is normal and ill be happy again

Oh Luv,<p>I am so sorry that you are feeling so low right now.<p>I would think that there are a combo of things playing into how your are feeling.<p>Being a new mom, having a toddler, being with H, thinking things are more solid there then before, resenting that OW and her H are working on their marriage and that your H would even bring them up, resentment that OW came to this sight.<p>Thru all of that you must take care of yourself and your two little ones, you did a good job not LBing and should be proud of your self. Can you talk to H about how you are feeling? I am sure he has noticed you not wanting to be around him as before. Above all take care of you!!!<p>Come here post and vent and let us support you thru this.<p>Dawn