SNL, sorry to borrow your name on several occations, no disrespect but your name always come to my mind when I thought about mentioning BE. I am honored that you still around and have interest in my posting.<p>I have a deep respect for you to hold off your comment on rev's post. You could put your comment later after we found out about how is he doing. You are always welcome here.<p>I lurked around Jeffers's post and confessed about my sin. I am also searching for reasons why I am staying. I come to brush w/ fire a bit. I encounter a brunette engineer, I think my top ENs matches hers plus she is very attractive & very smart. Yet, I walk away from it ... "my best fit" to suffer in my pain and misery (WW is w/ OM almost every night, I am treated just like a roommate that support her financially ... including her expenses of A). I could process & finalize Dv as my WW request it before courting BE. I could remarry, WW has committed adultry. My kids will be better of having mom & dad rather than sad dad & insane WW. The only explaination I could came up with - I will give my best shot at this M, I know if WW willing I could rebuild this M and have a full filling M. (loving & caring)<p>That is the story behind BE.