Hey, Thanks for the prayers. Well, It's been almost two weeks now since she moved out. It gets a little easier, but not much. I've been reading a whole lot of books and different ideas. But I have to sift thru a whole lot. I've come to the conclusion that I can't change the way my wife feels right now. All I can do is give her, her space. The only person that can change her heart and mind is God. Well see. When we talk it's about our son, quick and short. You know it's funny all the emotions that go with all of this. Counseling will continue for myself after the holidays. I think I've learned a whole lot on my own over a short period of time, but I also need other ideas. It's hard losing your best friend and lover. Do you think people can change? I certainly do, and I soooo want to and will. But my wife say's she's not sure I can. I guess I'll have to prove to her. She called me on Saturday and asked me if I wanted to go Christmas shopping for our son. We did. It was good I think. I got her to laugh a couple of times and didn't talk at all about the situation. I did tell her that here at work we might hire a female into our group. She asked " Is she cute? Single? I said yes to both, she said " Hum". Not sure what that meant. Then she asked if she could come by on Sunday to do laundry, of course I said yes. Well Sunday was alright too. She came in and sat down and was looking at the TWO stockings on the mantle and my Charlie Brown christmas tree. She looked sad. I just started to do things around the house, then she went upstairs. I went up about 5 min. later she was sitting on our bed. I asked what she was doing she said "nothing". So I went back downstairs. Then bout 5 min. later she was still up there, so I went back-up. She was in the bonus room looking out the window crying. I asked what was wrong? Again, "nothing" was the answer. So I left her alone. When she came downstairs, she looked irritated at the fact that I saw her crying. Maybe over the fact that this is hard for her? Not sure. But overall I've been doing better. But I still want my wife to come home more than anything!!!!! I've been very nice to her, although my friends think I'm crazy. I'm trying to do right by god. He say's to "love our enemys the way we love ourselves" and to "answer an insult with a compliment". So, I'm trying. Anyway's, Christmas will be hard. I'll be in CA, they'll(Her and son) be in Wisconsin. I guess my little boy will open gifts at the house on the 30th. At least I'm going home to see my family. So, how are you?
