I offer my thoughts, hopes and prayers as well.<p>With faith we all get through trying times.<p>Thanks
Rev

ATD:<p>I have tried suicide 4 times since Feb 2001 D-Day. <p>My H who is a serial cheater is 40, bald & jobless. But I love him! Obviously he didn't have much of a problem finding OW either.<p>Looks has NOTHING to do with this. <p>I still wake up EVERY morning wishing I were dead. But I hang on. Why?<p>Probably because of my 4 beautiful children that are totally innocent victims in all this.<p>I was hospitalized for a while back in Feb & March and it was torture on my kids. Now if they see me stressed or crying they get nervous that I am going to try & kill myself.<p>And just like all the statics & talk shows..my kid's (even after therapy) believe that they are the cause of my problems & my H's...<p>What a horrible burden to place on kids.<p>Yeah, my life sucks too. My H has torn a hole in my heart that will never heal. We've lost friends & family. We lost a lot...<p>I have to stay alive to help my kids deal with this crap. No one else can do it.<p>Yeah the pain is unbearable...God do I wish I didn't have to feel it for one more second. But how do I know I won't feel it after? How do I know that God won't punish me daily? Maybe when you die you have to watch all the suffering you left behind. Who knows? I'm too afraid to take the chance when I truly think about it.<p>Feel free to email me... I really do know how you feel.<p>Lisa fitnut96@yahoo.com

To All,<p>I have talked with him via e-mail several times today and I am pleased to say that our prayers have been answered. He now has much to reconsider and is begining to see purpose for his life. His last letter to me stated that he will not take his life. I am encouraging him to come here for help and encouragement. I need to go spend time with my kids now but will be back later tonight.
Keep praying...<p>SH

Dear Stillhurts,<p>Thank your for your support today. Your efforts are greatly appreciated. While non of us proclaim ourselves as miracle workers, the support and strength that eminates from this board is simply amazing. <p>AB2d,
I want to thank you for spending time with us. You are an important person who still has a lot to give to others. While not everyone will appreciate your efforts, know that there are those who do. Those are the ones we must all strive to be here for. <p>The effort Stillhurts did for you was what has been done several times this year alone. Please understand that we all have felt this to a degree and your pain is temporary. It will get to a point that is easier to handle and eventually you will reach an acceptance level during your 'stages of grief'. I will try to share that thread with you tonight when I get home. <p>Please keep posting here as there are many who are concerned. We can't fix all your problems but we can all be here to support each other. <p>Mahalo,
L.

I've been following this thread a bit because I too have felt some of the same things that AB2D does. The hopelessness a BS feels after finding out about the A can be devastating. <p>The response that AB2D received is truly a blessing, not just for him, but for all of us. I don't think that words can describe the compassion, understanding and genuine concern from the people who replied to AB2D pleas for help. To all who offered support and prayers, I am honored to be in your presence, your concern for another, even through all of your own pain and suffering, is honorable. Stillhurts- you are a remarkable person, thank you for taking the time to help AB2D and showing him that all is not lost.<p>I don't think a person could find a better group of people than those here at MB. God bless you all.

About2Die,<p>You can't do that to your kids. Just imagine the hell they would live through losing thier dad. They would NEVER recover from that, yet you WILL recover from the loss of your wife and go onto have a happy life. Trust me, your pain is TEMPORARY but suicide is permanent. <p>Many of us here on this board have lived through horrific devastation just you are, yet we have come out on the other side and found happiness. You can too as long as you are still around. Think of your kids first.

a2d,<p>How are you doing today my friend??? Remember you have an army of friends here all pumped up and ready to get to work with you to get your life back on track again.<p>God Bless, SH<p>Psalm 91:3-4
Surely he will save you from the fowler's snare and from the deadly pestulance. He will cover you with his feathers, and under his wings you will find refuge; his failthfulness will be your shield and rampart.

a2d.<p>It seems that everyone has said what needs to be said. Just remember - Life is too short. Everything get better. EVERYTHING!!!!!<p>I have a W that is cheating on me. I have two small boys. I FILED, because I could not take it no more from her. Eight months of lies, staying out late, phone calls, ect. I feel like crap. Just the thought of not being a full time father kills me, but you know what - Everything gets better. <p>I think it was Louser who wrote that her H is 40 and bald. It does not matter about the looks. So don't worry about yours, You'll do fine. <p>Your main goal should be your children. They love you. I know when I go home, my boys are running for me to kiss them and love them. The best thing going is that my WW is in the fog that she does not engage with them. She's too busy with her looks and perfume. I can't remember the last time she gave them any of her time by herself.<p>Remember -It's going to get better. Just hang in there. A lot of us are in the same boat. <p>Dino

To All,
I got mail from a2d today and I am please to say that he is doing good!! All the prayers and encouragment worked!! I have been encourageing him to come here for help on dealing with issues. I truly belive he will be with us soon and when he heals from this pain I also belive he will have a powerful testamony to share with others who are faced with no hope in life.
I also would like to say to all of you here at Marriage Builders...Thanks for helping me when I needed you guys the most. I too was a lurker for months before I started posting and those months of lurking here was a true God send!! Thanks again and may God work wonders in all your marriages as he has done for mine.<p>Stillhurts (but not any more)

Hi Ab2d and Stillhurts,<p>Howdy do to both of you and glad to hear positive news!!! [img]images/icons/smile.gif" border="0[/img] <p>Look forward to hearing from you Ab2d. Take your time, we will be here. You have hooked up with one stubborn bunch of survivors here. Despite the odds we are still here.... right guys and gals?!?!? [img]images/icons/grin.gif" border="0[/img] <p>Thanks again Stillhurts for your update. You have put a smile on my face. I have been pretty grumpy today with all these major commitment dates everyone else is expecting me to make in their behalf. I just wanna plan B them all..... he he he [img]images/icons/wink.gif" border="0[/img] <p>Take care and waiting to hear from you but hey....no pressure K?<p>L.

To all,<p>I finally got more mail from A2D and he is on the old emotional "roller coaster" but hanging on like a trooper. I have encouraged him to return here for help and encouragment. I am hopful that he will. It seems they are making progress but it is hard and slow as we all know so well. Just thought I would fill you in.<p>SH

StillHurts & AB2d,<p>Thanks for the update. I am glad he is holding on like a 'trooper'. <p>AB2D, please come back and share your thoughts and feelings with us. As you can see this group is quite tight!!! LOL!! Your thoughts are just as important as all of ours. So please come and share!<p>I am still stuck at work....so I could use some encouragement too! [img]images/icons/smile.gif" border="0[/img] <p>Take Care,
L.