I just got a speeding ticket $271!!), my very first one. Funny thing is I didn't realize I was speeding. Was thinking about my situation with my H. In July of 2000, I got into an accident. My fault...had just had an argument with my H, got into the car and just drove off. Got a ticket for an illegal left turn...my first one. I'm just a mess. Keep sinking further and further. <p>I'm just not all there anymore. Can't keep focused. Perhaps I shouldn't be driving at all???

oh, yeah...welcome to my world! Last Dec 8 my H left me, I had to move in with a friend, h and I reconciled but I left my daughter with the friend because I didn't want to change her school after only 3 wks. My oldest son lost his job twice in the early summer, no way to feed baby or pay rent so we had to help them out--leaving us strapped for cash. Then, just when things were starting to go right again, I drove through an uncovered manhole and put a gash in the transmission of my 2001 truck $2000 and now the place where I live is dragging its feet on reimbursing me. Did I mention that my insurance was cancelled three days before the accident because of some paperwork snafu??? And now, I have to hustle up some money to pay some extra expenses by mid March so H can go to school. And it's taken the attorney general over a year to schedule a hearing on the child support I requested for my daughter from my x.<p>welcome to my world. [img]images/icons/cool.gif" border="0[/img] At least we're alive to complain....but it's gonna be okay!

Terrie,
Hey, it comes with the territory! I don't think many people who have not gone through this realise how devastating it can be.
This has been particularily tuff on me because it is the secondofficial time I busted my DW. But the whole experience has me reflecting back on history & other things she has done & the way she has acted out.<p>Just know that we've thinking of you & that I pray you find some peace -- soon! You don't seem so terrified anymore.<p>Now that the holidays are passed, waz up?
Is he still being a basic AXX or can you see some repentence kind of thing coming through? <p>I'm doing home prjects as we are putting our house up for sale soon & down sizing -- so It may be a while before i check back in.
Love & prayers to ya!
HH

Hi DD, Wow, you certainly do have lots to deal with...how do we stop the cycle? Sometimes I just don't think I can or will get through it, you know what I mean? <p>Hi HH, Nice to hear from you too. I thought the New Year would start out right BUT...wrong again. I'm just so down because of this ticket. I'm not really as terrified as I once was...and as for my H, well, he's not repentant...still says he doesn't want to love me "now" so I guess he's still being a selfish "Axx". I hope your situation improves. Your wife is pretty lucky. <p>Happy New Year to both you.

Terri,
I pretty much look at life as a test...even the good old days weren't that good. [img]images/icons/wink.gif" border="0[/img] I mean, locusts, epidemics, whatever, have been around since the beginning of time. It's just life. You just have to remember that they can't kill ya and eat ya.

Hi Terri,<p>Yes, it seemed that way to me too.<p>What I think happens is you're so preoccupied with thinking of the A and it's effects that you aren't concentrating on everyday life.<p>You know, I have no clue what was going on around me (world news, Movies, etc.,) for nearly a year or better (when in the THICK of it). It was like I went to another world for that stretch of time. <p>I wished I would have started on Wellbutrin back then, I lost so much time going thru so much emotional CRAP, and now looking back I think the additional bad things that happened could have been handled better, plus they may not have happened at all if was would have been more focused. <p>Take care, Terri. Try to just take things slower, in stride. Anxiety & stress can manifest in all sorts of unexpected behaviors. <p>Love,
Jo