well here i am in my hotel room with my new nails feeling more lost than ever. I saw the lawyer yeterday afternoon and got all the information I needed to proceed with ending my marriage. Something I definately do not want to do, really feel like it can be better than ever if only he would give it a sincere attempt.<p>My girlfriend called last night and told me when he picked up our daughter that he was in too deep. What the heck does that mean. It's as if he feels like he's gone too far and doesn't feel like we can recover. I'm trying to plan a, definately no lb's, but definately very hard to control my emotions when I speak with him. <p>I called home and he and the kids were eating dinner. I talked to all of them and then him. Last night when I talked to him he sounded upset, like he was thinking and still confused. Today, he sounded very matter of fact and asked what time I would be home. I'm 99% sure that he has plans with OW tomorrow at his new place and needs to know what time to meet up with her. He wasn't sweet to me at all, very matter of fact, like he couldn't wait to end the conversation. He did say that he is planning on telling them he is going out of town again this week, so I guess next weekend will be when we come out in the open and tell the kids. I was hopefull that spending time with them this weekend would make him miss them more and not be able to do this, but I think it had the opposite effect and Disney dad can't wait to get out of the madhouse and back to his calm new life with the single, ow.<p>maybe he was just frazzled with spending the whole day with them and having to get dinner ready and all. maybe he will call me tonight to fill me in on what his plans are for tomorrow and the rest of the week. All I can do is continue to pray and hope that I read him wrong when I talked to him tonight.<p>He really is a great guy, unfortunately, maybe he's not as confused as I thougt.<p>Any thoughts and comments would be greatly appreciated.
