Hi all havent posted for a few weeks, in my last post i said how i told H that i thought he should either stay away or start to put a bit into it.<p>H didint actually say he was going to try but i guess he didint want to stay away completely.
So for the last few weeks he has been around a few times during the week.<p>I have been on my best behavior since last post, i have not talked about OW our M or anything to do with any of it just plan A my bum off.<p>You folks would have been proud of me, a couple of times it was so hard!!
H brought his neww laptop comp round and set it up for me to have a play on.<p>Played around on it went into games section clicked on a game and what!!!!
Ow daughters name was entered in it, just to remind you H has not met kids yet.
BULL****<p>So anyway when H is here next i just asked if a certain game i like is on comp, he says i dont know and goes to games and starts going through them, clicks on one and OW d name is on screen.<p>H quickly clicked it off but knew i had seen it,
i calmly said if you havent met kids how come that name is on there H said i have now, i asked if that means he had now made a decision where his future is and he said no.<p>I never said anymore just left it at that, suprised myself at how calm i can be,
Then last night H came round to get ready as we had a friends 40 birthday party to go to.<p>I told H to bring something to wear as there is nothing left here.
He came in with a bag so i asked him if he wanted anything ironed<p>The only good shirts he had was one that OW bought him, and an older one he has had for ages. H knows i know OW bought the shirt he had there, so i calmly picked that shirt and ironed for him to wear and never said a word.
I was soooo proud of myself it actually did not bother me.<p>So while i am a bit bothered by the fact he has now met OW kids, things here have ticked along quite well and H has stayed a few times and SF has come into it as well<p>H just seems ok as long as i dont talk about A or anything of our M or what he is planning.
And absolutly no LB in sight.
So while knowing he has met her kids does scare me a bit i know there is nothing i can do so i will continue as i am.<p>H does seem to be texting me a little more, but still no sign of affection other than SF.
But he is coming round quite a lot and does stay 1 or 2 nights a week so at least i think i still have a bit of a chance.
Thanx for listening.
Liz<p> [img]images/icons/smile.gif" border="0[/img]
