Each day since the weekend blowup has felt strange. Four days of closing my eyes after he leaves each night and holding my tears...seeing the resentment in his face and in his eyes and knowing that it may never go away. <p>This week, he has still insulted me where I have just walked away. However, he has appeared to indifferently "inform" me a little of his whereabouts.."I have a soccer meeting tomorrow night so I'll have to leave a little earlier." "I'm leaving now because I have to go to the office so that I can do the pickup tomorrow." "I have to grab a few prizes for so-and-so's fund raiser." "By the way, I'm going skiing next Friday for the day..."<p>The night of the soccer meeting, he had his friend meet him at the house so that they could take the friend's car. His friend, who is one of the token few that knows, felt a little awkward but winked at me as they left. Told me secretly to "hang-in"...<p>I guess these are baby steps. I should ignore the fact that he hasn't shown any affection since New Year's Day or that he rarely looks at me in the face. <p>Four days seems like four years. Cold, distant, angry...funny thing is that I'm not angry. Just really empty when he leaves. How long does it take before you don't look back to see if he's taken notice?

Terri, I'm sorry you're having such a hard time. Why are you continuing to let him be there every day? Can't he have visitation with your D at his place? If he's being so ugly, why do you want him there?? I'm sorry, but I think you would feel better not having him come over every day. He's got his own place, so let him see your daughter there. Just my opinion.<p>I'm praying for your strength.<p>MOM

Hi MOM, thanks for replying. I know you're experiencing a very difficult time right now. Regarding visitation with my daughter, my doctor recommended, that in order not to disrupt her life, she should not be forced to visit at a strange place. My H doesn't have furniture, nothing for her...etc. She should not be forced to get confused as to where her home is...so that's why things have stayed the way they do. <p>Good luck this weekend. You'll be okay.