Aaagghh, this is killing me, I've got to get it off my chest, and this is a good place to do that!!<p>For those who've read my recent posts, you'll know that:<p>- WW has started saying some things that make me honestly wonder if she's finding her way out of the fog by herself.<p>- WW, in a moment of unusual honesty, admitted that she needed to help OM with an assignment on Thursday and might be a bit late. Well, she got home at nearly 1:00 am! Ouch! [img]images/icons/mad.gif" border="0[/img] (Her excuse: his English is very poor, and she has a hard time communicating with him! [img]images/icons/confused.gif" border="0[/img] <p>- WW left for a conference in Europe on Friday. We parted on a pretty positive note. Gave her a nice kiss and hug, despite her shenanigans the evening before (coming home so late).<p>Now, I do have access to her e-mail. Not proud about it, but I feel it's about the only thing I've got to check the true pulse of the A and see how my Plan A is doing. Ironicly, I haven't gotten a lot out of it - her e-mail is pretty boring!<p>Interestingly, OM has sent her 1 e-mail in the past 5 months - to this account at least. It was fairly recent too, and wasn't overly mushy.<p>Now I see that her friend has sent her an e-mail. Normally, her e-mails are pretty useless - she likes to talk about her screwed up life a lot, and she doesn't include any of my WW's original messages.<p>But the really interesting thing is that I now see a message from OM #1 sitting there. I know this has got to have some valuable info. Last exchange with him was very interesting, told me a lot about her state of mind (very confused). If she is indeed finding her way out of the fog, this might be proven or disproven by the message.<p>But aaggghh - I have to wait for her to read it. It's killing me! Oh well, once again I need to be patient. I hope she checks her e-mail before she comes back - she says she's going to try.<p>It's rare to get a look into her true state of mind. And with her a while ago saying she was considering moving out when she got back "if she didn't feel any different", versus her recent softer tone - it's all very confusing for me.<p>Regardless of what I see, my plan doesn't change. It's to continue a pristine plan A. It will either help her as the fog clears, or it will be the perfect lead-in to Plan B. (Something BTW that I'd initially planned on doing at the end of the month - my time limit; but I will obviously soften that if she is indeed starting to defog.)<p>[ February 09, 2002: Message edited by: J.R. ]</p>
