It is with sadness that I say good-bye to this site. I have been posting from work on a daily basis. <p>I cannot handle my work any longer. Everything is out of control. My life, my work...........
I've decided to call it quits with this work.<p>I've started this job in May 01. This was on the insistence of my WS. I had to find a job because we could not cope financially.. At that time I did not understand the urgency as I thought we were doing quite well on his salary. I've always worked and decided to take a break of six months. Two months into the six months break he started nagging that I must find work. Now I know he had ulterior motives. Two weeks after I starting at this company he moved out under the disguise of being treated for depression. Three week later I found out about the affair. So I started off on a very bad footing. After D-Day I spend two weeks in a hospital for depression - I lost it completely. I've never been the same again. Concentration completely gone. This is so unlike me always up to date with my work and looking for ways and means to save company money. I feel I've actually cost this company money.<p>Where do I go from here. I really don't know. I am an accountant and thus far I've been quite lucky in finding work easily. I am praying to God that he must carry me through this crisis too. My family is also supporting me.<p>Thanks for the support and encouraging responses from you all.<p>It is so true in SAA - You are in for the roller-coaster ride of your life. These six months I've been on the worst roller-coaster ride I've ever experienced in my 40 years.<p>I will be back as soon as I am more settled and at any opportunity I get to access MB.<p>Thanks again
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Hi, I do not know your entire story, but I hope that you are able to find peace within yourself. Remeber patience is a road less traveled. You have come along ways, and right now you feel lost, but do not give up. All of us here share your pain, your hurt, your despair, we are united by a force that has been trying to defeat us. We shall overcome, but we all need each other to work thru. <p>Keep posting/venting/seeking you need us now more than ever.<p>Need to chat, want to vent in real time? got aol or msn messenger? email me your nick or email, I have lots of time to listen.<p>digitalslavery@lameindustries.com

I'm right there with you. A little over a month since I found out about my Ws A and things are starting to get a little better. I was laid off two weeks ago but I was in the same spot you are, not being able to concentrate at all and getting myself into trouble over missed time. So the layoff was a blessing in disguise you could say.<p>I still don't know where we're going. She claims to not be seeing the OM but I've stopped asking, given her my key and put some distance between us. We've put decision making on hold until my lease expires in 3 months. She claims that she wants time and space from both of us to make sure she makes the right choice. Provided she does stop seeing him, we might actually have some hope. I'm not planning on it though and am working to strengthen myself and move on.<p>Good luck to you in your struggle. This has been the single worst experience of my life but it's also been an eye opener. I've learned alot about myself and how I behaved in my marriage. I'll be a better person for it. I know this in my mind but it doesn't help my heart to cope. I'll pray for you.

HI, I want you to know , I am too in this boat.. my employers have complained about my productivity and forgetfulness, and lack of promptness and missed work, etc.. I am not me either... normally I am one of the hardest working employees you can find... I also mess up on my personal stuff.. I forget due bills, I forget everything, and talk about confused.. this is the most difficult period of my life.. unfortnatley, I have a great need for money right now... sometimes now that I am more stabilized on the anitdepressant, I get absorbed in my work and enjoy it, it can be fun, and really take my mind off of things, and I love that...! <p>I am sorry you are losing email, or internet... go to the library... this is hard... I
only worked part tiem from home when My H abandoned me...<p>I am so sorry for your pain, I hope it gets better, keep coming back and keep working on you.<p>Hugs, hONEY

Ginny,<p>I will not be able to write you anymore? I'm going to worry about you, please feel free to call or write snail mail, and keep me updated, and let me know just as soon as you have a new connection!