Well, now after having along discussion w/my H about him not being trustworthy he is back to his old tricks on just forgetting what just happened. I have discussions w/him and he acts like he doesn't know what I am talking about. This happens w/everything, he also turns our conversation on me not being happy? What is that about?? I am not happy because My H lies to me about where he is, who he is with, goes to work early comes home late, goes to a different Country and doesn't tell me, comes home drunk, gets letters from people saying he is cheating on his wife, and someone else is setting him up, that is his excuse.<p>I also explained to him how trapped I feel w/him, I don't have a job, we have bills, if I did get a job I wouldn't even be able to pay for my car w/1month salery, you know what he said, do you want me to find a job for you???? I will support you in any way you need, you just let me know, If you are not happy then I will take all the bills blablaablab.......somehow he made is seem like this is my fault that I am not happy w/myself!!!! this is what he kept saying to me,,, I finally yelled and said I was not the problem, he was, his lieing was, I havent' done anything but stick by this guys side for 10 years. All I have gotten in return is lies, Everytime I turn around there are more. <p>Yes I admit my self esteem has plummited and has been that way for two years, not because I have problems w/me it is him that is driving me into the ground. He makes me feel like an unimportant, neglected, stupid, small piece of *$#@.<p>I am tired of being someones door mat... I just don't know what to do about it or I don't have the courage to take the next step.......
