Last night while playing around on the internet, I decided to check the history since I know WH has been on. I found links to divorce sites, chat rooms, and match making service. I asked him about them, he says he was just surfing as far as the chat rooms and matchmaking - that windows popped up and he just followed them - didn't chat with anyone, etc. As far as the divorce sites go, he said he was just gathering information. He has sworn to me over and over that he doesn't want a divorce, that he loves me and the children and has no intentions of leaving - well then why the research???? The only thing I can come up with (other than he is out to get me and planning something behind my back - first thought!!) is that I work in a legal office and he was trying to even out the field as he knows nothing about the law or his rights.\<p>More - the night he was on the law/divorce site he was researching adultery and child support. Well in this state, if you have sex after you know about the adultery, it is seen as forgiveness and you cannot pursue a divorce on those grounds. Well that very night we had sex for the first time since this happened. I don't know specifically if he found that out about the forgiveness or not, but you can imagine what went through my mind. Then he then he told me I was being paronoid and reading more into it than there was. He said it without getting angry which makes me want to believe him. Am I just being paranoid??? I am pretty sure he has cut off all contact with the OW. And he has been acting better and I thought starting to come out of his fog.<p>What do you think??? I just don't want to be taken for a ride, you know?? If he wants out, he needs to tell me and not sneak around about it.<p>This is all so frustrating. I think I am losing my mind!!!
