Pimmers, I don't know what time zone you are in and I'm way up here in far off northern Canada [img]images/icons/wink.gif" border="0[/img] <p>But seriously, I hear your pain.<p>Pimmers, what are the things you want out of life? What do you want out of your M? If you could have an ideal world, what would it look like? And without the ideal reality, what could be at least a better reality for you?<p>I don't mean to make you fill out a questionnaire..just to help you get in touch with what is wrong. You have stated it's a sexless marriage and communication is missing. <p>These are obviously problems you cannot repair on your own. But is there any chance if H would listen to you, that maybe you could begin working on one issue together?<p>If not, is there any way you can get into some counselling on your own to begin with? You need some emotional support and because you are vulnerable, you need to protect yourself--don't fall into someone else's arms at this time.<p>If you have faith, lean on God even if it doesn't seem He is there..He is. Whatever you do, please keep posting because there are people here to help you. Please don't give up. You have just taken an incredible step of courage.<p>I work at a place where we say, "Asking for help is a sign of strength." You have taken the first step...now please keep reaching out...because we will be here to help and support you as you share your story, your needs, your questions, your hopes.<p>You certainly don't have to answer all my questions!!! But please do ask them of yourself and then post again. <p>Due to time zones and my need to soon "zone out," I hope we connect but if I miss you during this night, please let's touch base soon. I hope to get some time online tomorrow or at least Tuesday.<p>You will find help here. We care about you, Pimmers.