Dear Zorweb, Estes, Sad Sally and Conqueror,<p>
Thank you so much for your replies.....I am afraid I really did lose it yesterday. It has been awhile since I have been that emotionally upset. I did not go to the basketball game. I tried to call my friend at the community center and tell her to tell my H that we already had dinner plans and that my son had to come home with her. Then my 16 year old came home, and I had her go over to pick up Kyle---she is pretty no nonsense---and I thought Kyle would listen to her. <p>My friend sad that he stayed for the whole game---no sign of OW. Knew she was here somewhere---maybe they got a hotel room. He approached my friend and said that he wanted the kids this weekend because he will be no longer flying. She told him we already had a busy weekend. She said he looked sad.<p>I was afraid to go over to the game because I was afraid I would lose it around him--so I am going to let the lawyers and judge decide this. This whole situation is so sad. If my H hadn't made such poor choices and added to those choices over the last year--he would be here with his kids. I don't think he thought there would be consequences for his behavior.<p>I took my zoloft last evening--and I could feel it kick in--won't make that mistake again. I hate my life. I hate what this has turned into. I can't even protect my kids from it...that is sad. I know my son misses his dad---but I am not there to protect him from his behavior. <p>Zorweb, I am glad to hear that your son made it through this without serious damage...I am praying for that with my kids too. Thank you all...I am much calmer today.

Glad you sound better today MnM, Take one day at a time. I also take zoloft don't know what I would do without it right now. Things are so messed up in my world right now, but I won't get into that right now.<p>
Anyway, you take care of yourself and stay strong I am thinking of you.<p>
Love Sally

MnM<p>glad you are doing better.<p>you do see how far you have come, not long ago wouldn't you have gone to the game & had fight with the _ _ _ <p>you did not let him know he was getting to you<p>let the lawyers do the work, that is what you are paying jerk lawyer for (you do stil have that one, don't you)<p>You did good, Pat.

Good job, MnM,<p>I'm thankful that your evening passed without a confrontation. I'm interested in the action the court will take on OW being around the kids.<p>Take care, Estes