OK,<p>H is planning on moving out in 2 weeks. He found an apt and is turning in the app tomorrow.<p>This is the hardest thing I have ever dealt with.<p>I am trying so hard to be calm and rational right now. I'm not crying, not begging him to stay, not pointing out all of the mistakes I see him making.<p>He is doing this despite financial concerns. I mean, we do great together, seperatly, it's going to be a struggle. Plus, his mom needs some financial help and we are not going to be able to provide it after he leaves. There's just no way. We would do it in a heart beat if he was still here. He could have the new car he wants if he stayed too. But, I have made it clear to him that finances are not a good enough reason to stay. He has to want to try and work on us.<p>I just get so afraid. Afraid if I am not telling him how much I want him to stay and try he will think that this is all ok with me. Afraid that he and OW will start up again after he moves out. Afraid that even if they don't he will be happier alone than he is with me and our S. <p>My chest gets tight, my eyes well up with tears, I really just can't stand it and desperatly want to tell him that. <p>Maybe there's no real advise to be given here. I know I can't make him do what I want him to do. I don't want him that way anyway. There just seems to be a vast difference between what my head tells me and what my heart is crying out. I do have an appt w/ Steve H tomorrow. I really don't know why at this point. My H thinks it's pointless. But, I just want to hear what he has to say. I guess that's the same reason for this post, I just want to see what all you MB vets out there have to say. How do I get through this? What kind of things are OK to say to him?<p>I really have not love busted at all in the last couple of weeks. (valentines day was the excpetion) I even looked at the info on the apartment yesterday and told him it looked nice. He just said it was really small. My parents are going to be in town the weekend he is planning on moving. They are staying at a resort here in town, I told him that, he said that was the weekend he thought he would move. I just smiled and said I know, that's why they are not staying here, and this will give me and S a distraction and we can stay out of your way.<p>I was working just after that and was a little distracted, he said something to me and I just kind of mumbled a response. He asked me if I was getting upset again, I turned to him, gave a little smile and said No, I was just involved in this work right now. And turned back to my work. (This was the truth BTW, I really was not thinking about it) Well, actually I think about it all the time.<p>Anyway, that's my story today. Sorry for the ramblings, but, as usual, thats the way my mind is these days, a big ramble.<p>Needing
