Hi all im just feeling a bit low at the moment, i know i have to let go and really get my act together.
Havent seen H all weekend as i had a night away with Friends on sunday, H stayed the night with kids but was gone in the morning when i got back.<p>Monday i rang H to ask about time i had to take car to garage, he sounded so down i asked what was wrong and he just said he was fed up. sent him a joke text to make him smile.
He sent one back and said sorry he was just fed up with the weather as it was stopping him working on his truck.<p>Anyway i have done a lot of thinking over the weekend and i know i have to leave him alone, last week i LB big time and i know i have to stop as it has undone any good plan A
This morning i sent H a text saying i love you i always have and always will.
But i have found all this with him and heroin problem with D all to much at once.<p>Also said you have an escape route open to you,and i wish i could just dump it all and run.
Then said i love you and want you back but the odds in my favour dont look good and that i was going to leave him to it and to take care.<p>He sent one back saying and you take care and whatever you think i do care about you.
So i think my best plan now is to just really really concentrate on me and the kids and just let go and accept that H wants OW in his life.<p>At least i can prepare myself for him moving in with OW at some point.
Ive found im not ready for plan B but i am going to stop the texts and calls and just try to be pleasent but cool when H comes here.<p>I cant see i will ever stop loving him, but maybe a gradual withdrawel will help, not to sure but thats what i plan.
Would love some opinions.
Liz
