Hi all i think i have finally got to acceptance stage, this is my farewell to the H i used to know, cant send it to him as its probably a big LB but need to get it out.<p>Was it really 27 years ago we met, sometimes it feels like yesterday.
We had a lifetime ahead of us then, now it seems its over and you have found a new life with OW.
It has taken me a long long time to see that i cant make you want to be in our marriage, ive tried all ways and realise i just drove you away with my tears and temper and LB's.
After OW #1 ended in March 2000 i thought we had it all, i felt loved and special and i thought you did to, you seemed so happy and i dont think we have ever had so much lovemaking as we had then.
And this is the one thing i will never ever understand, why did OW #2 even happen, i know it was an ego thing to start with, but did i mean so little to you.
Thats the part that has destroyed me i gave so much and was the best i could be and you told me you were soooo happy.
But it really does not matter anymore, i know you love OW, i have become just the mother of our kids.
All the things i used to do for you have gradually been passed on to OW, you no longer need me, when i realised that was when i let go.
Your smile that used to be full of love and given to me is gone, the touches as you walked past, the rude comments, the suggestive texts its all gone and i miss it all so much.
And then there is s*x, oh yes we have still done all that untill a couple of weeks ago.
But it has not felt like you have made love to me in a very long time, lust yes but not love.
But then how could you when you love OW?
So you see my love i had to let go and rebuild my life and i know i can do it.
I love you more than life itself and in my heart i know i always will, maybe one day you will realise that we did have it good and you want it back but i can no longer dwell on that 24/7.
I want you to be happy in life, and if that is with OW then i wish you well and hope it works for you.
Take care my love and know i love you, i always have and i always will.<p>xxx<p>Thanx to you for reading this, just needed to say all this to someone so chose my friends here as most of you understand as only someone who has been there can.
Im very sad but i now know im going to be ok.
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