[img]images/icons/mad.gif" border="0[/img] [img]images/icons/mad.gif" border="0[/img] <p>Why would he do that??? Because he thinks I'm an idiot. He is probably right. I am an idiot for trying to make this marriage work. <p>There is much I havent updated lately. Mostly because I feel like a fool for believing him and was frightened that if I put in down in black and white a huge wake up call would hit me smack in the forehead. <p>He has a new cell phone, not the kind on which he can chat. But one he can text message on. Last week I glanced at his phone and saw a message he had attempted to send to someone. ( I say attempted because this new cell phone is on another cell phone company, and he can only text people with phones on that company. ) He denied trying to send a message, says all of that is behind him. (this I believ [img]images/icons/smile.gif" border="0[/img] ) He said maybe someone was trying to text him and they had the wrong number (this I dont believe [img]images/icons/mad.gif" border="0[/img] ) He sad he has been completely honest with me since the day he got rid of the original phone (Feb 8th) <p>He said he would come clean with me about the jewellery store purchase he made before Christmas time. (before d-day 2) he said it was for jewellery for me ( I dont wear any jewellery except my wedding rings) He said he bought some necklace for me, and immediatly returned it because he thought I would be upset about the money he spent on it ($80.00??? [img]images/icons/mad.gif" border="0[/img] ) Well obviously this is another one of his many stories that dont add up. <p>Today, I come home, and he tells me that if I check the computer I may see something about a porn site. He said he was on Kazaa (music file sharing) and all of a sudden naked women appeared on the screen. I told him thats not possible unless its something he accessed and to tell me the truth, its not a big deal. He denies, denies denies. I go into history and see that the porn site was accesssed an hour before Kazaa. Pretty clear right?? Again he denies denies denies..<p>Its like he cant admit the truth until I have clear physical evidence to back it up. <p>Thats why I asked if there is any way to restore the history once its deleted. Maybe then he will tell me the truth.<p>Sometimes I wonder what I am doing here. Why do I put myself through this hell just to get lied to again?
