Wow.. I guess things do happen for a reason. This morning I woke up at 2:15 and couldn't get back to sleep. The signal for the TV was out, so I got online. I got on my H screen name to check his mail, history, etc. He is fully aware I do this. You know sorta earning my trust back. Well right before I sign off guess who IM'ed.. mind you I'm on H screen name. Yup, the ow. I have always had a feeling she'd try to contact him. That's one of the reasons I still chat with her. <p>Anywhoo, She declared her undying love for him. Told him she sits at night and crys over what she lost. She told him if we (H and I) ever split up she's there for him. She can still feel the connection they have. Oh and she even told him the job she had lined up for him was still available, they'll fit him in whenever he arrives. ::rolling eyes:: She of course tried to tell him lies about things I supposedly have said to show she's the better woman. I was even to get some questions answered. Things hubby denied, but she tried telling me happened. Overall, the conversation proved very helpful altho she did try the suicide bit when "H" told her he didn't want to be with her. <p>I did email her later. I told her I know her true intentions and they are nothing like she has told me. <Like Duh!! I was born in the morning but not this morning> I explained I understood why she fell for H, heck, he's a wonderful, caring, guy. Why else would I have married him? I told her I wasn't going to push him out of my life and into her arms. When and if he ever leaves it will be of his own will. I then explained, if he truely wanted to be with her and if he felt any connection to her he had 3 separate chances, once I told him I'd buy the plane ticket for him to Wi if that's what he wanted. (Dday) He chose me and his family. <p>You know writing the email to her helped remind me why I'm fighting so hard. I did copy the IM conversation and saved the email. H read both, the IM before I sent the email. I asked him what he thought. He says the IM was scary but the email was good. He claims it, the A, obviously ment more to her then it did to him. My head is telling me it had to mean something, but I'm taking his actions to heart and it doesn't seems like it ment much to him, by his actions.
Why is it now after all this time I finally have a calming feeling? I've wondered maybe finding out he's being honest is relieving some fears. <p>My H has been on Anti D's almost a week. He says he can tell a difference in himself. He says his days are easier and brighter. <Even with it snowing here> I'm starting to see the man I married again. A word of warning, but it's not really a bad thing.. [img]images/icons/grin.gif" border="0[/img] Our doc told H the meds might make it harder to umm, "get off". [img]images/icons/shocked.gif" border="0[/img] [img]images/icons/grin.gif" border="0[/img] [img]images/icons/wink.gif" border="0[/img] Well, it does help it last longer. Now that everyones getting prescriptions for Anti D's I'll send this. [img]images/icons/tongue.gif" border="0[/img] [img]images/icons/grin.gif" border="0[/img]
