I decided to start a new thread because two other posts spoke so clearly to me, that I wanted to combine what I want to say into a new post.<p>1. Someone asked what pain a WS feels. Although I was not 100 percent sure I was a WS -- you remember my story -- I totally related to the feelings mentioned of feeling guilt and withdrawl and pain.<p>The worst thing is knowing that you brought it on yourself, and you can't truly figure out how it happened. There is no one to talk with to help you find a way out of the pain. Reading the posts from other WS rang so true with me that it helped. The emotional pain of withdrawl is stronger than I ever would have believed. I remember sitting on a couch, overwhelmed with tears, thinking that I so needed this woman in my life. <p>And then you have to go on with the rest of your life -- being a good father and husband and worker, and you carry this emotional baggage whereever you go. One woman on there said it was not worth it. She is so right. What happened to me is that it slipped up on me slowly and before long, I was addicted. This stuff is stronger than booze because it involves your heart and head and body chemistry.<p>If any good comes out of any of this, it is the forced examination of who you are as a person.<p>2. There was another post on he