Found MB too late...H in LOVE with OW! - 02/14/11 07:36 PM
Hello,
I've been posting over on MA...but a gal from there suggested I check out MB's forum.
Married 18 years
M- 45
H- 42
OW- 62
3D's-13, 14 and one from PM 22.
6/09 Snooped in H's email and find "inappropriate friendship" with a woman he met in a bar in that same week.
7/09 Reassures me that she is just a friend
8/09 Truth comes out, one night stand in the week he met her, now keeping in "touch" via texts.But still claims only friends now.
9/09 I threaten to move out, demand friendship ends.
10/09-1/10 Things get better,but he sneaks to text OW...gets caught. I snoop through emails, cell records etc.
1/10 Find out H is seeing OW or so called friend on the side, has been all along.
2/10 Although I knew it had been PA, it is now deeply EA.
2/10 ILYBIDLY
2/10 H moves out
3/10 H comes back ILY
4/10 H moves out ILYBIDLY
5/10-9/10 H claims in relationship and a couple with OW.
9/10 H comes back ILY
10/10 Busted at the airport with OW
10/10 Told H to go stay with OW
10/10 H comes back crawling ILY
11/10-1/11 H says "just friends" again..texting OW all the time.
1/11 Tired of the lying and the back and forth, I don't know whether to believe anything anymore and accuse of H's still in EA with OW. Possibly PA by sneaking out to see her. H says it's over with me, ILYBIDLY
2/11 H hasn't moved out but has now stopped coming home. He is not living with OW, but living in another state where he is working out of town. Although he claims that he wasn't seeing OW, just talking to her a few weeks ago...I am now seeing evidence of the affair back in full gear.
2/14/11--Find receipt for Roses sent to both myself and OW. Hers are RED and card is signed "I Love You"..My roses are PINK and card is signed "Love Always"
Anyway...so why am I here and what do I need from this board?
Direction maybe on what to do next. I have told the other board that Plan A is not going to work. This affair has gone on too long to even try a Plan A. I think that I have had done Plan A in the past, not knowing it was called Plan A.
Seeing for my own eyes now, the words that he wrote on her Valentines Card..."I Love You" tells me that I am losing him to her. I didn't use any of the tactics described in SAA...well maybe other than exposing the affair to his family, my family, my kids...I wish now that I had exposed it to her family. Her friends and family just think H is great and have no idea what they are doing. OW was not married, single older woman (20 years older). I had toyed with the idea long ago to do the Facebook exposure to all of her friends/family but didn't. I don't think it would do me any good now. I have now seen pictures where the friends and family have accepted them as OW's boyfriend...and they look pretty happy with his company.
Little do they know that H is bouncing back and forth between us. In October he came home, and told me that it was final, he was done with her...but there was no NC letter sent, nor transparency asked for and he continued to contact and communicate via text/phone with OW. I did know that he had thrown out the "I Love You's" to her, but he always told me that it was just a response and that he didn't really mean it. I actually have a transcript of our chat where he said that things get said (such as an I Love You) in a moment of emotion and that just because he said it to her, doesn't mean he meant it. Well seeing it written on a Valentines card attached to red roses called Pure Passion bouquet, are not a moment of emotion. He is in love.
So where am I at now?? Ready to end it. Ready to go full force PLAN B..knowing that PLAN B is not to manipulate him into coming back. For all I care at this point, she can have him...he is too messed up, and he needs help. I do believe he is addicted to this OW. I do care about him, I do love him...I just can't do this anymore.
How does H feel about me?? Confused. I know he loves me too...he won't say it anymore face to face. Whenever he is around me, all he does is cry and say how messed up he is. Last night, he brought the kids home from having them all weekend and the proceeded to come looking for me since I wasn't home. I own a business, so I took off to go clean it around the same time H was bringing kids home. I was surprised to see H driving into parking lot looking for me. I asked him what he was doing, and he just shook his head and started crying again.
I think H loves 2 women and doesn't know what to do. He is one confused person.
Debating on whether I should thank him for the flowers he did send today.
Debating on what my next move really entails...and how dark I really want to go..for some reason part of me does not want to get nasty about it. I want to be firm, but without being nasty.
H is still missing his family life...Showed up at the house while I was at work and bought all kinds of superbowl munchies and made himself comfortable at the house. I came home from work and joined them, and then after the game he just smiled and waved goodbye to me and left.
The night before SuperBowl, he spent with OW having an nice elegant dinner. (Her pictures are plastered on FB of the two of them at dinner).
I have read half of SAA...need to pick it up and re-read the whole thing again.
I have been reading MB's stuff since last July, so I do know and see a lot of what is going on with my sitch in other stories. The I LOVE YOU just blows it for me though,,,it's just the final twist of the knife.
Last night while in tears, H says that he really is happy just being alone. He has that "feel sorry for me" tone in his voice. He doesn't want to answer to me anymore, says he is tired of my checking up on him, and I am not his mother and he WILL NEVER answer to me. Claims that his affair with OW is 'none of my business'...and that is isn't about if he wants to be with OW or myself, that it's about HIM and what makes him happy.
I've been posting over on MA...but a gal from there suggested I check out MB's forum.
Married 18 years
M- 45
H- 42
OW- 62
3D's-13, 14 and one from PM 22.
6/09 Snooped in H's email and find "inappropriate friendship" with a woman he met in a bar in that same week.
7/09 Reassures me that she is just a friend
8/09 Truth comes out, one night stand in the week he met her, now keeping in "touch" via texts.But still claims only friends now.
9/09 I threaten to move out, demand friendship ends.
10/09-1/10 Things get better,but he sneaks to text OW...gets caught. I snoop through emails, cell records etc.
1/10 Find out H is seeing OW or so called friend on the side, has been all along.
2/10 Although I knew it had been PA, it is now deeply EA.
2/10 ILYBIDLY
2/10 H moves out
3/10 H comes back ILY
4/10 H moves out ILYBIDLY
5/10-9/10 H claims in relationship and a couple with OW.
9/10 H comes back ILY
10/10 Busted at the airport with OW
10/10 Told H to go stay with OW
10/10 H comes back crawling ILY
11/10-1/11 H says "just friends" again..texting OW all the time.
1/11 Tired of the lying and the back and forth, I don't know whether to believe anything anymore and accuse of H's still in EA with OW. Possibly PA by sneaking out to see her. H says it's over with me, ILYBIDLY
2/11 H hasn't moved out but has now stopped coming home. He is not living with OW, but living in another state where he is working out of town. Although he claims that he wasn't seeing OW, just talking to her a few weeks ago...I am now seeing evidence of the affair back in full gear.
2/14/11--Find receipt for Roses sent to both myself and OW. Hers are RED and card is signed "I Love You"..My roses are PINK and card is signed "Love Always"
Anyway...so why am I here and what do I need from this board?
Direction maybe on what to do next. I have told the other board that Plan A is not going to work. This affair has gone on too long to even try a Plan A. I think that I have had done Plan A in the past, not knowing it was called Plan A.
Seeing for my own eyes now, the words that he wrote on her Valentines Card..."I Love You" tells me that I am losing him to her. I didn't use any of the tactics described in SAA...well maybe other than exposing the affair to his family, my family, my kids...I wish now that I had exposed it to her family. Her friends and family just think H is great and have no idea what they are doing. OW was not married, single older woman (20 years older). I had toyed with the idea long ago to do the Facebook exposure to all of her friends/family but didn't. I don't think it would do me any good now. I have now seen pictures where the friends and family have accepted them as OW's boyfriend...and they look pretty happy with his company.
Little do they know that H is bouncing back and forth between us. In October he came home, and told me that it was final, he was done with her...but there was no NC letter sent, nor transparency asked for and he continued to contact and communicate via text/phone with OW. I did know that he had thrown out the "I Love You's" to her, but he always told me that it was just a response and that he didn't really mean it. I actually have a transcript of our chat where he said that things get said (such as an I Love You) in a moment of emotion and that just because he said it to her, doesn't mean he meant it. Well seeing it written on a Valentines card attached to red roses called Pure Passion bouquet, are not a moment of emotion. He is in love.
So where am I at now?? Ready to end it. Ready to go full force PLAN B..knowing that PLAN B is not to manipulate him into coming back. For all I care at this point, she can have him...he is too messed up, and he needs help. I do believe he is addicted to this OW. I do care about him, I do love him...I just can't do this anymore.
How does H feel about me?? Confused. I know he loves me too...he won't say it anymore face to face. Whenever he is around me, all he does is cry and say how messed up he is. Last night, he brought the kids home from having them all weekend and the proceeded to come looking for me since I wasn't home. I own a business, so I took off to go clean it around the same time H was bringing kids home. I was surprised to see H driving into parking lot looking for me. I asked him what he was doing, and he just shook his head and started crying again.
I think H loves 2 women and doesn't know what to do. He is one confused person.
Debating on whether I should thank him for the flowers he did send today.
Debating on what my next move really entails...and how dark I really want to go..for some reason part of me does not want to get nasty about it. I want to be firm, but without being nasty.
H is still missing his family life...Showed up at the house while I was at work and bought all kinds of superbowl munchies and made himself comfortable at the house. I came home from work and joined them, and then after the game he just smiled and waved goodbye to me and left.
The night before SuperBowl, he spent with OW having an nice elegant dinner. (Her pictures are plastered on FB of the two of them at dinner).
I have read half of SAA...need to pick it up and re-read the whole thing again.
I have been reading MB's stuff since last July, so I do know and see a lot of what is going on with my sitch in other stories. The I LOVE YOU just blows it for me though,,,it's just the final twist of the knife.
Last night while in tears, H says that he really is happy just being alone. He has that "feel sorry for me" tone in his voice. He doesn't want to answer to me anymore, says he is tired of my checking up on him, and I am not his mother and he WILL NEVER answer to me. Claims that his affair with OW is 'none of my business'...and that is isn't about if he wants to be with OW or myself, that it's about HIM and what makes him happy.