I don't know why but I couldn't get onto this sight for days and it was driving me crazy!!!! I missed you and and needed to talk but I couldn't get in.<P>Anyway for an update my crazy life......for those of you who have been reading my others posts :"what is he trying to pull","It is worse then I thought", and "Now I know why my H jumped off the balcony"<P>H decided he didn't want to go to an in-house program, even though everyone in the family tried to talk him into to it. We all agreed he has to want it for himself. This was last Sunday.<BR>Well on Tuesday H got into a car accident because he fell asleep at the wheel. He totaled his car and went to the hospital but he was fine. From the hospital he was taken directly to jail because he had a controlled substance on him.<BR>After this big slap in the face he decided that he better get help. His mom took him to detox because he was really sick and he was talking to himself. He spent 3 days in detox and on Monday (tomorrow) his mom is taking him to a Christian in-house program.<BR>We are still split up and it is really hard especially on our 5 year old. It is so hard for her to understand. <BR>One day I feel fine and don't want him back then the next day I can't stop thinking about him! It drives me crazy. I love and care about him and his well being but on the other hand I don't want anything to do with him. (except for the kids sake)<BR>I finally got on an anti-depressant called<BR>celexa, I have never heard of it but it seams to be ok so far.<BR>I am really tired right now but I wanted to let you all know what the latest news was.<P>I MISSED TALKING WITH YOU ALL!!! [Linked Image from marriagebuilders.com]<BR>Take care and God Bless!!!<P><P>------------------<BR> GOD,<BR>Grant me the SERENITY to accept the things I cannot change, COURAGE to change the things I can and the WISDOM to know the difference. <P>