Don't out-think God, Luri.

He works.

Period.

If you focus on "can" and "will", you won't change your mindset to "do" and "do not."

Keeping going back. You were loved before you walked in the door.

Learn to leave the "should be" and "could be" outside.

And take back a piece of pride and congratulate yourself on going.

Then keep going.

You're not alone.

LA