Hi there

I am having really heart pangs for him today. I really wish I could think a bit more clearer, I seem to be pining for him way too much. I am spending a lot of time focusing on building a new life making plans, I have taken up tennis which I really enjoy.

BF seems to take over my thoughts most days. I am very embarrassed about the situation and just can’t seem to get to that place of happiness looking forward to a better life.

I am also filled with fear. Fear he is never going to change and fear that he has met someone new and because I live in such a small town it is going to rubbed in my face.

Funny though out of all this process I feel as though I am a better mother. I feel so much closer to the children.

Last edited by Coolbeginnings; 03/16/20 09:13 AM.