Thank you Goody2Shoes

The children seem to be fine thank the lord. I have clarified with them what is going on, that is not their fault. They seem bright and happy and Not acting up at all. I am very lucky.

I on the other hand, am broken. I have been sucked back in, suffered terrible anxiety for the last 48 hours. I am starting to calm back down and re group.

Looking back I did 10 weeks where I did not text, call or make any contact with him. I did well. I know I can get back to this place.

I wish I was able to shut the door and walk away for good. My family is everything to me.