Sometimes it is like I have had an affair or something and is pushing me away. He is making it clear there is no one else, and every day he keeps coming to see the kids and I every day. However, he is keeping me at arms length. No words of love and no signs of commitment. Maybe he is scared it will all fall apart again? Or maybe he just doesn't feel that way?

He is certainly very territorial about any men coming in the house.

Sorry if I seem up and down. I do come here to vent. No one else sees this side of me. I am not even opening up to friends or family now. I just keep it all a secret and vent here.