Saw BF at DS football yesterday. At the end when the kids and I left, BF came over and asked me some questions about kids. He started to cry when we walked off.

So I sent the letter last night. It said about rehab and what he could do it with my love and support. It also said about day visits and no overnights until I have reassurance that there are no drugs.

My brother has agreed to be IM again.

Couldn't be worse timing and now I have to navigate Christmas.

I feel numb.