I honestly don’t know what’s happening to me. It’s like I am coming out of some sort of coma.

I actually feel soooo good. When I see him I actually feel a bit scared (of what he might say to trigger me) but he also looks like a pantomime villain too. How odd.

I also feel worry for the children being with him because of his moods/put downs/high expectations. They always come back ‘hyped’ it takes ages for them to calm back down.