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In the meantime I simply pray she develops a chronic and particularly painful lower intestinal disorder characterized by severe cramping and gas Binder, this just struck me as funny. I hope you get to the point of forgiving her, not for her but for your sake. I just told my stbx today that I forgive him. It had struck me a few days ago and I had to roll it around in my mouth for a while to see if it was momentary or true and surprisingly...it is true. He is forgiven. I am still broken and have a long way to go in my own healing but at least I can leave that burning behind me.
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In the meantime I simply pray she develops a chronic and particularly painful lower intestinal disorder characterized by severe cramping and gas. LOLOLOL I'm sorry, that was just funny. Cheap, Comedy-channel, hilarious funny. I loved it. slh
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The widower went on to exclaim his faith in God and how he realized that to move forward he must forgive and not allow the cycle of hate and vengeance to gain momentum. I knew watching that man I have a long way to go to even have that level of self actualization in sight. This documentary. . . perhaps on PBS?. . . I think I saw it too. One of the most humbling things I've seen in my life. And yet what an epiphany! slh
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Gray,
You adjust quickly.
Campfire.
I like it.
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FF, hope you brought two bags. Marshmallows are one of two main staples of my camping diet.
Of course the other is beer.
And no I do not burn them to a crisp.
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"And no I do not burn them to a crisp."
Which? The marshmallows or the beer? (If it's Guinness, you don't have 2!
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And no I do not burn them to a crisp. Two bags, Gray. One for you to roast and one for me to burn. <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/grin.gif" alt="" />
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Today I finished repairing the base plaster in one of my bedrooms. Having just sat with my thumb up my butt for a year, unable to work on the restoration, this is gigantic. Within a week, the room will be ready for paint, though the trim won't be back up for a good stretch after that.
Earlier today, I spent a few hours running around getting supplies and more mundane stuff like toothpaste. Seeing all the women out there in the world when I'm all alone freaks me out. Think I'll set up an appointment with my IC. Today I had one of those horrible pangs of grief that used to come with nearly every breath. Just that feeling of total rejection, ouch.
I feel excellent though, now. I'm exhausted, but accomplished something good today. This house is going to be a jewel. Just give me a few years...
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Graycloud,
You have done some really good posts helping others. I think I heard you say once that you didn't feel like giving advice because your M was failing.
One of the reasons I wanted SLH to do the talking about your strong points is that you needed to hear it from a Girl.
You KNOW she wasn't making it up. You KNOW she was givng her honest opinion.
You also know she's no fool, and could see past a big faker. (if one existed)
I didn't realize that some of this would take you so long. Perhaps I underestimated how much it affected you. Maybe you are too good at playing the strong silent type.
As I thought over the weekend about the ~Puzzle Puzzle~ and your sleepless nights, I realize I it was/is still haunting your thoughts.
You may be sick of this by now, but it is a symbol of my faith in your ability.
Sail on.
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As I thought over the weekend about the ~Puzzle Puzzle~ and your sleepless nights, I realize I it was/is still haunting your thoughts.
Speaking with a friend last night, I put it to her like this: I'm still troubled by what my wife has done. I don't see that changing. But SS, I'm not in the same state I was in two months ago. Weeks ago, something changed.
Like the other night, when I didn't sleep... I was not in anguish. Don't get that any more, exactly. I spent that night lying on my bed, calmly, just thinking about big subjects, like forgiveness and death. I was a little frustrated that I couldn't sleep, but not especially. Haunted? Yes, but not like before. Before, I was in agony, thinking, what happened? Now my thoughts fall more into the what now? category.
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"What now" is lots better. Thanks for telling me.
I know you are quite a humble person, but I was telling the truth, you are good at this.
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Ok, Gray I am here with the hotdogs, marshmellows and beer. Now do you have your guitar ready? SS, know any scary stories?
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How about bread on a stick, I think I have some honey butter?
Yes, I know some good ones. Scary ones, UFO stories, and some faith promoting ones.
I really want to hear Gray sing though. I understand he is pretty good.
How about you FF, do you sing?
FF, I hope you are doing well today, you seem to be.
SLH, do you have a favorite song (that you sing?)
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How about you FF, do you sing?
FF, I hope you are doing well today, you seem to be. I love to sing but only with the windows rolled up in the car LOL. Really off key but enthusiastic. <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/grin.gif" alt="" /> Doing ok today, thanks. I called my doc for an increase to my AD's. My first step to taking care of me. <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/wink.gif" alt="" /> I would love to hear the faith building stories as well. Come on Gray, let's get this campfire burning! Music !!!!
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I'm repairing the plaster in my bedroom. I love the smell of fresh plaster. My room doesn't smell like it's in an 80-year-old house. It smells clean and new. I'd like to bottle that smell. Okay that's tweaked. Who would bottle the smell of plaster? Different strokes for different folks I guess. I love the smell of sanded floors and fresh polyurethane!! DS8's room needs some plaster work too. When can you get here, or where can I find the instructions on how to mix it properly?? <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/cool.gif" alt="" /> Sleepless
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I'd like to bottle that smell. Okay that's tweaked. Who would bottle the smell of plaster? Different strokes for different folks I guess.
-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- I would bottle the scent of fresh sawdust! Very nice childhood memory scent. <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/smile.gif" alt="" />
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Gray, what kind of tunes do you play? I do sing but I had to tell Jelly I didn't or she wouldn't let me stay in Idiotville <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/wink.gif" alt="" /> Hmmm. . . Something Gaelic? Something folksy? Gray, you are all of those things I wrote about you and more. I wish I knew someone up there for you. You're a wonderful, wonderful guy. And -- dare I say it, after the ribbing we took fro 2L & Binder. . . I don't know how appropriate this is, so please yank out the MB Protocol Scroll and beat me with it if necessary, but if I were single, you're the kind of guy I'd look for. Just on a motorcycle. LOL <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/pfft.gif" alt="" /> Was that snigger one of sheer terror or flattery? I couldn't tell. <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/wink.gif" alt="" /> <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/pfft.gif" alt="" /> Bring on the Marshmellows! And beef jerky! I love beef jerky! slh
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Can I join. I've got marshmallows AND I know a lot of old southern gospel...very nice on a smoky night.
I never had to take the Kobayashi Maru test until now. What do you think of my solution?O'hana means family, and family means nobody gets left behind or forgotten. My Story Recovered!
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Kimmy-girl! I love gospel too! (Can't believe I didn't think of it!) You and I were raised down south, that's why! Nothing like driving by those great gospel churches with their doors flung open and all inside singing hallelujah!
My kiddos are swimming in their chintzy pool and I'm trying to figure out what's for supper. But we can pretend, huh?
How you been, sweetheart? I've been missing you tons.
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>My kiddos are swimming in their chintzy pool and I'm trying to figure out what's for supper. But we can pretend, huh?
How you been, sweetheart? I've been missing you tons.
I gave my kids a treat for dinner. They've been in the wader all day...so I brought the plates out to our picnic table. They were thrilled. We had baked-fried chicken (I soaked it in ceasar dressing then dredged it in flour, then baked it), veggie couscous and broccoli.
I'm just okay..under the circumstances. I miss my old life terribly...you know, the life b4 A, when life was simple and clean and good.
But, it's a blessed day when you have brown babies, a wading pool and lime sherbert for dessert, right?
Sorry to TJ, Gray.
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