Wait, wait, wait. I'm confused.

Is Giraffe your almost-roomates almost-girlfriend? Or GIRLFRIEND?

This isn't Miss Unrequited, right?

I can't blame my ignorance on wine, but simple-minded Monday morningness. Blech.

slh

Giraffe is his actual girlfriend. Ms. Unrequited, who I have never met, put my roomie in a sort of plan B. Except there's nothing he could do to get out, with the possible exception of falling in love with her and moving back in.

I want July back. Where'd it go?

GC

July? Pshaw! Heck, no! The temperatures here finally dropped enough for us to be able to go outside for any extended length of time. I even slept with my windows open last night (Ti groaning the whole time about how damp everything would be when we woke up). It was delightful.

I tried putting on my jeans for the first time and realized they are really . . . snug. Depression has allowed me to become an oinker in the worst sense of the word. Back to the gym.


slh

GC - I got your message on my thread. I am going to consult the experts. I am no scholar, but I know some.

Hope all is well. Like Pep, I needed a break and took a few weeks off (the boards - the issue)

far

Faithful, I just stopped in to say hi, as I saw you said hi to me on another thread after I signed off.

I hope you are well, and I think of you often.

(((((((Faithers)))))

Hugs to the rest of you fire-bugs as well!

Hey everyone,

Is weaver still here? I've been wondering where she was. I CANNOT keep up with all these places; t&ls feminine stuff, idville, and greys. Is this where all the cool kids hang?

really weaver, been thinking about you! Hope all is well.

jls

JLSEAGULL!!!!

I've thought about you too! I very rarely see you post anymore (of course I am trying to stay out of this joint, but I MISS everybody sometimes).

And yep, this is where all the cool kids hangout alright!!! You got it!

Stay cool jls!

Hi ya, Weaver! Miss you too.

"The sun was setting, throwing a fog-like dusk across the stream and trees, and there was a coolness in the air. It was time, I knew, to be getting back to camp. But I did not want to move. For I had the feeling that this was a place, once seen, that could not be seen again. If I left and then came back, it would not be the same; no matter how many times I might return to this particular spot the place and feeling would never be the same, something would be lost or something would be added, and there never would exist again, through all eternity, all the integrated factors that made it what it was in this magic moment."

-Clifford Simak, "Cemetery World"

-ol' 2long

"There is magic in every moment, Arthur. Said Merlin the Wizard to the young King Arthur. <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/pfft.gif" alt="" />

Magic in every moment, but some more than others.

Hi Weaver,
Hi 2long.

Oh shoot, Hi, evweryone.

SS

Hi SS <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/smile.gif" alt="" />

Hi Faithful,
I was going to type everyone, but ran out of time.

What was that day last week when you seemed low?

Better now?

Got your vacation planned for next year yet?

And............. how was today?

SS

I'm climbing into my "anguished graycloud" costume.

But first I'll give a holla to weaver 'cause I like her and she's a rarity. And I need her address 'cause I lost it.

Oh, and FAR - I'm very curious about that thing I posted about.

Okay. So. Let me see.

Today things took a huuuuge step forward in the direction of me owning my house.

And I was outside, because I had some private phone conversations, and it was a beautiful day, so I sat outside behind the lab and thought a little. And along the way, I had that inclination again, that urge to reach out to my ex. It did lead to this terrible anguish. I won't explain much. No "baby please don't go" nonsense. Please. That's long gone. A more generous feeling, is what it is. But it's also a real load which I'm fixin' to carry a while longer still. I know so. My dreams are full of it.

Anyway, I fret and complain about it, but I am willing to bear the heavy burden, even if there's nowhere to put it. As predicted, I asked for help from elsewhere, even if I don't believe in it. I asked for help because caring about my ex is unavoidable and hurts a lot.

So I got home from band rehearsal, and my new roomie - he needs a nickname. Call him Jayne - he's a little like Jayne from "Firefly" - Jayne and the Giraffe are here. They came downstairs and we hung out for a while. The Giraffe is an excellent girl. I hope they stay together. So this is Jayne's first time actually staying here, except for once when Ms. Unrequited was making things rough and Jayne slept on my couch.

So I have a roommate now. Makes me less free to just pick up my guitar and HOWL, but it's a good thing, and hopefully we won't fight too much.

Wow. Did I lose my point. Never mind then. Night John Boy.

GC

Did you ever! <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/grin.gif" alt="" /> I thought you were really going somewhere with that, and then I got to the end and it was like, "what, what????". J/K <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/grin.gif" alt="" />

Glad you now have a roomie Gray. You think way too much and now maybe you won't have so much alone time on your hands to do that. (I do it too)

I have a new addy which can be posted (my names not in it) -

chanci99@hotmail.com

Hi SS!

The trees are almost bare now, once again, and I am looking forward to the first snowflakes to fall.

DD is coming home Friday for her four months with me!

Yeah!!!!!!! <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/smile.gif" alt="" />

Hi Weaver! ***waving and blowing kisses*** Thank you again for all your time and help. I will always appreciate the time you, WAT, Mimi, LM, and the others took to help me.

I'd gush longer, but my mom just called to say that Grandpa's ID is missing, and they're all supposed to leave for the airport in an hour. Figures. <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/grin.gif" alt="" />

Hi again everyone,

Hey 2long, glad you are here. I went away for awhile this summer and when I came back, you were gone. I have been sporadicly (word/sp?) lurking and Here Everybody is!

I mean it seemed as if all the "old" ones were gone, except a few in Iville. I should come check out the fire more often!

Yeah, gc, I think I know what you mean about the "anguished gc" costume. And asking for help...but that is why I come here. Funny how we get help from the strangest places,and "strangers". And it is all unavoidable and does hurt a lot. Too much pain in the world. I get so mad that there has to be a place like this...That is one of the reasons I left for awhile.

Well, now I want weaving lessons from weaver. I really NEED that parachute.

I have come to some conclusions (well, it won't really ever be "Concluded") in the last few days. I went back and read some of my old posts and thought, "Whew, i gotta do something". This has been going on way too long!

It seems as if I go through these "funks" every 3-6 months, or during med changes anyway (1/2 joking). And I get way down and then jump up and Yell (figuratively) "Hey Let's fix this and NOW. Let's DO SOMETHING!" So here i am at the yelling point and deciding that it really is time to do something to "conclude" this whole mess. I don't mean divorce (yet), but you know, "poop or get off the pot"! And H has to get on board. S Harley said that. That H has to get onboard. Well, the boat's gonna leave without H, if he doesn't get going. Can't wait for him to finish that poop forever. In life, we should only take so much time for bathroom breaks. I learned to go real fast when i was pregnant. Time's awasting and that's just wasted time.

whoops, took off on that ramble. IT's that babbling incessantly gene. My DD has it and it's cute on the young. Just makes us not-youngs look older. And senile.

jls

Anyway, glad you are all here. Hanging out at the fire. Keep it going, the nights are getting cold here. Frost last night.

Well I was just getting comfortable with my little funks, and then my ex's lawyer sent a nasty letter to tell me I'm getting hauled into court. Typical lawyery bluster that doesn't scare me, just makes me feel like he!!.

GC

{{GC}} I love that term "lawerly bluster" <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/smile.gif" alt="" />

ooooohh GC, I HATE court! and I know a bunch of lawyers (bartend near court buiding) and bluster is RIGHT!

I HATE that court is supposed to be "justice" and it so often is not! I HATE that little people like your ex use the system and sometimes use it well...therefore no justice!

I hated it when my D15's biodad acted like it was such an injustice to him, when I took HIM to court,after 10 years, to raise child support. I hated that he LIED on LEGAL DOCUMENTS and that it surprised me and that I get so MAD about that. I just don't get it, not THAT stuff....

Anyway, I hate court.

jls