Out with it!

Not polite to drop hints and stop.

SS

Hey Gray,

They guy I'm seeing now was a fixup, and he is just perfect...for me. Has a few arrows in the old back too. I want someone who has been around the block once or three times, don't you? I think people get much better with scars.

Okay for all the fixup's with the arrows in the back -

Peter Gabriel and Robbie Robertson

Who else is gonna bring you a broken arrow
Who else is gonna bring you a bottle of rain
There he goes moving across the water
There he goes turning my whole world around

Do you feel what I feel
Can we make it so that’s part of the deal
I gotta hold you in these arms of steel
Lay your heart on the line this time

I wanna breathe when you breathe
When you whisper like that hot summer breeze
Count the beads of sweat that cover me
Didn’t you show me a sign this time

Who else is gonna bring you a broken arrow
Who else is gonna bring you a bottle of rain
There he goes moving across the water
There he goes turning my whole world around, around

Do you feel what I feel
Do you feel what I feel
Ah can you see what I see
Can you cut behind the mystery
I will meet you by the witness tree
Leave the whole world behind

I want to come when you call
I’ll get to you if I have to crawl
They can’t hold me with these iron walls
We got mountains to climb, to climb

Who else is gonna bring you a broken arrow
Who else is gonna bring you a bottle of rain
There he goes moving across the water
There he goes turning my whole world around
Turning my whole world around
Turning my whole world around
Turning my whole world around

Weaver,
You have been PRETTY QUIET about how it's going too.......

SS

What do you mean? No I haven't, I have been blabbing all over the place.

I am very happy SS...walking on clouds.

And I am not going to get too spiritual again, but I know when and how it happened. Not the moment exactly but the events which led up to it, and then BAAAMMMM!

I know you understand what I am talking about, atleast I think I do.

And hey as Orchid asked, how about an update on you? LOL

Garden all harvested?

What do you mean? No I haven't, I have been blabbing all over the place.

Does this mean I haven't been reading enough?

I admit I have been gone a lot lately.

Update?

I just kind of go around and take a few pictures every once and a while.

Grin.


Garden is still alive. The little that's left of it anyway. Most died in the 117 deg heat we we had for a week in July.

What's left is a few tomatoes, some zucchini, and some green peppers.

It usually freezes between now and Dec 7th - last year it was into Dec before first frost.

We visited our son in Phoenix AZ a few weeks ago. Vacationed all the way there, and back. The twins were out of school for three days, and we took an extra one besides that for six total days away.

Did some caving
Saw the Phoenix zoo
BBQ with the inlaws
Rode motorcycles
Went out to dinner with a former MB'er that lives near our son.
Shopped
Shopped some more
Toured old route 66 in northern AZ -
Visited the Log Cabin Govenor's mansion and museum in Prescott AZ.
Took more pictures.

W and I are doing well. It's so nice to be in love. I think I might like it.

any ?

SS

And I am not going to get too spiritual again, but I know when and how it happened. Not the moment exactly but the events which led up to it, and then BAAAMMMM!

I don't mind at all. You are always interresting.

Being up in the clouds can be so airy. (I mean that in the best possible way.)

You and Paige have a big thing going tonight?

SS

No, her dad and stepmom took her to the casino for the holloween party there. It was something they had planned with her and her baby sister.

I took her out to a friends house Sat night (Teresa, my assistant) and we went to a haunted trail walk in the woods. It was really, really fun. Creepy and scary but fun! Well the guy who jumped out of the woods and started a chainsaw had me second guessing my decision to go on the pitch black trail walk, for a minute...but other than that it was fun. LOL

I don't like being scared. I don't take it gracefully at all.

We get to have a family dinner tonight, all the married kids that live close are coming over. (4 of them, with spouses, and kids.)

I can imagine it will get wild with the doorbell ringing, and the kids running around the neighborhood once dinner is over.

Your bell been going crazy?

Weaver, I've always loved that song. It has such poetry to it.

Took a picture of my dd5 at the barn yesterday, and thought I'd share:

Juliet

How was everyone's Halloween?


slh

Soooo CUTE!!
You really ought to post more photos.

How is the job search going?
You are well? And I don't mean healthy.


Halloween was good. The only bad part is that there is way too much candy left over. Way, Way too much.

I guess I could always sent it to Faithful.

SS

Send it on over! We had nothing left, my H even had to go get more around 7:30. We get around 300 or so kids at our house.

SLH, you should be a professional photographer. Lovely, just lovely...

Weaver! <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/wink.gif" alt="" /> and smooches too.

Hi to you, SS and GC and AD and 2long and....

SLH - great costume. So lifelike.

I hate it when I find some things.

For sale - 2500 to a good home.

Tells me a lot. So many hopes, so many dreams. Riding on such sacrifices.

You are always in our prayers. You don't have to reply about this if you don't feel like it. Just know people care.

SS

Hi all. That's a purdy pitcher SLH.

Things are happening. House things. I hesitate to get excited, but good news keeps arriving. I think I've done what it takes to keep my house, but not celebrating yet.

Still, sleeplessness, harsh dreams, they cause me to lay awake thinking, there in my bed at 3 A.M.

Halloween was great. Made dinner for Jayne & the Giraffe, had fun. Today, accepted an invite to play guitar at a charity event. Need to learn a few tunes, FAST.

GC

Gray,
I was laying awake last night thinking about you, and the dreams.

No answers, but wishing they would change - into good ones, not nightmares.

Hope the house thing goes down well. Be helpful about now.

Good luck on the tunes. I'd have to lip sync.

Thanks for helping with the charity event. Not everyone will. You da man. <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/wink.gif" alt="" />

SS

SS, your post brought real tears to my eyes. Ones I haven't allowed myself the luxury of in some time. Thank you.

We are doing better, I think. The prospect of losing Ti sent his employer in a frenzy and they have since thrown money at him to keep him from leaving. 10+%. Now, if only we could see a paycheck. . .

Maybe this means I won't have to part with my boy. We'll see.

TT, you saw the costumes? I sewed the two on the right, but I think the crowning glory was the Tidy Cats cat litter bin DD10 carried to collect her candy in. It went well with her cat costume and everyone got a hoot out of it.

Gray, all your hard work is paying off. How does it feel? Are you ready to relax yet?

FF, what did your monkeys dress as?

Thanks for the compliments on my pics, y'all. If you like, I can add/post more. I am going to start working on our "real" web site soon. I love photography and web design but have so much to learn. Still, when I can make a few bucks off something I enjoy, it makes it all the more worth it to me, you know?


By the way SS, I think you should publish some of your pics. Absolutely gorgeous.


slh

SLH, DD was a skeleton. You couldn't even tell she was a she! Mask and all. DS was Thomas the Train. Very cute. <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/smile.gif" alt="" />

SLH,

What I want to know is - do you have hope.

Not the wish kind, with no basis in anything real.

But the kind where things are starting to turn, and you can see it might actually work.

Is it real hope, and a part of your days now? Can you hold on to it, and live with things for a while? Are you OK down inside where we go when we are scared? Do you find enough comfort when you go there?

You have a wonderful family. It's a joy to see your girls smile. May your smiles be as real, and as natural as their smiles are.

SS

Do we get to see pics of Thomas the train, and the scary bones girl?

SS

Good golly, SS, don't let's both of us lose sleep.

Last night was interesting, the perspective that you get, all skewed and what not, when you come out of a bad dream about your ex.

Came out of it feeling lucky. In a dream I used to have often when I was married, I wanted to be with the sparrow but was engaged to someone else. I'd wake up relieved and grateful.

It's like the opposite of the WS feeling, dreaming of being with someone else and waking disappointed because they're stuck with the person they chose.

The blindness that makes a person doubt their choice of partner, and wonder if there might be someone more perfect for them, someone who might "make" them happier, that blindness is profound.

Because which way you feel about where you are - glad because you chose it, or troubled because you're stuck with it - isn't determined by the chosen partner, by how attractive or generous or brilliant or wonderful he or she is, it's determined by YOU.

Those two perspectives are perfect opposites, and the latter of them is the one that causes things to end in tears.

Giraffe and I were talking a little while ago. She and Jayne are gonna get married. She told me about it last night while we were cooking and Jayne was running around scaring trick-or-treaters. I was not gracious at the time. I said, "Well that's damned exciting" or something. Not sarcastic, but not giving congratulations either. Tonight I said I was sorry and tried to explain. She was transfixed. She really wanted to hear what I think about it all.

Anyway, I'm typing away here in hopes that getting some of this out will keep it from robbing me of my sleep.

I don't feel guilty for not forgiving my ex, nor do I refuse. There is nothing wrong with giving yourself time. Especially when the perpetrator does not seek your forgiveness.

Last weekend one of my favorite editions of Speaking of Faith was aired. It was the one about the "Truth and Reconciliation" commission in South Africa in the mid-1990s. There was an incredible story about a group of women forgiving the man who had killed their husbands. Their forgiveness was genuine, but it was made possible by the man's remorse, also genuine. The women even said this was what made their forgiveness legitimate.

That was the wonderful thing about that commission: those who were guilty and those who suffered worked together to make forgiveness possible.

Lucky duckies.

GC