I think that maybe it does have everything to do with dating.

"Build it and they will come"

I believe that with all my heart. Me, I open my heart to the wrong guys probably, but at least I open it. I try to see with my heart, the possibities. But I flunk out if there is no chemistry. I still suck at making fire out of flints, I know.

I love talking about love, and preparing your home and heart for the right person to come along. Sometimes even if it takes a few smacks to get to the right person, I know I will and I know you will too Gray.

Got to open that ole heart.

"Get in the pit and try to love someone"!!!! As the Kid would say. <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/grin.gif" alt="" />

Thank you Binder, I think you are something too. <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/smile.gif" alt="" />

That's great GC, but it’s making it difficult to live vicariously through you. I mean couldn’t ya just take a so so one to a movie or sumthing? Then tell some embellished stories about the night? Give me something would ya….

Tonight after band rehearsal I met Jayne and the Giraffe for a drink and a few oysters.

They asked me questions about my ex's affair and my divorce. They've never done that before. I've told Jayne some things, but the Giraffe hasn't heard much about it from me. So I talked about it.

Jayne lives with me. The Giraffe almost lives here too. So they know more about me than lots of people. They're getting married and want to get it right.

They don't understand why the sparrow, if she was a human being, and if she had any brains or had anything like a good heart, would have abandoned a swell guy like me. That this would happen to me unsettles them.

They left, then I left, and on the way home I felt very sad. Spilled a few tears, just the usual ones, thinking about what I lost, having spoken about it.

Now I feel pretty good. I still have times when I think the things that happened were partly my fault, because I'm not lovable, not good enough, &c &c. It was nice to see someone, especially a thoughtful and smart and great-looking girl, confused as to why the sparrow would walk away from me.

Maybe, GC's simple little brain says, it really was all about her.

Maybe there never was anything wrong with you.

Could it be?

GC

It could be.

GC - you have the heart, the life, the heartbreak - to write some GREAT songs. I hope you are journaling. I can imagine hearing you croon a Steve Perry-esque song in a bar with almost no lights, hot and smokey. And your song causes all of the lovers to sit quietly - looking into each other's eyes - knowing that they better take care of each other.



I looked up "agnostic". Interesting definition. Maybe I am more of an agnostic than I confess. (can't confess to too much when you work for a highly evangelistic church...)


Are you gonna build your studio around a pro-tools system?


Glad I stopped by....

I need a drink.
far

Hey FAR. With the studio I'll pay most of my attention to making a dead room with massive walls, floor, and ceiling. And I'll at least build "hooks" for a control room into it. As for what's to be done in there... I'd like to use the room for playing loud guitar without bugging my neighbors, getting big stuff into my basement (via a luxurious egress), watching movies maybe (though I prefer going out to the theater), and if necessary SCREAMING.

I've written lots of songs these last two years, but nothing is complete. I don't know why - guess it's a reflection of all that's been going on. But - I think some of the stuff is awfully good. I'm not much of a singer though. I can carry a tune and have a good range, and my voice is pleasant, but it doesn't have much character to it. I'm a good backup singer, like Sheryl Crow.

GC

Hi FAR! GC, I haven't really posted much here lately but wanted you to know that I do pop in to keep up with you and the other campers. You sound so good, even when you are reflecting. Big, big diff from just a few months ago.

Ah ha! I found the marshmallows. Whew. I feel much better now. (I accidentally stopped elsewhere on my way here. Scary.)

Sorry, J.

You have news and I'm still holdin' my breath waiting to hear what it is.

I did like I promised and swimmed a buncha miles and now it's time to fold my laundry and watch a movie.

Maybe Kill Bill. Haw, haw.

GC

I have news? no no no. I had a thread I had to find. That one over on JFO. News will come later and will definitely not show up tonight. Tonight, I'm insane and anything I post about it here will just create ranting on this lovely thread, and we don't want ranting.

I want a beer, though.

Glad to know you swimmed. I like swimming. I just hate getting cold. (No really. Four years of synchronized swimming team and I hated it every single darned time I got in the pool -- for 30 seconds until I warmed up.)

J, have one with me then!

The only way to handle the cold water for me is to just not hesitate at water's edge. It is bracing for a few seconds, no doubt.

There's an all girl rock band from L.A. called "The Like" and they have a video where they pretend to play on a stage in a pool surrounded by synchronized swimmers. It's kinda cool. You can see the video on their website I think - ilikethelike.com

GC

Instead of a beer, I read odd articles on the Internet. And didn't do the work I was supposed to do. And now I'm going to bed. But I'll look at that video tomorrow. Sleep well, m'man.

I swam for three years in high school. Sometimes we would walk across ice in a speedo with a towel to get to the bubble with the pool in it. But after that first thousand yards, ye ain't cold. It was good for me, a scrawny asthmatic. I went from 90 lbs the beginning of my freshman year to 130 the beginning of my sophomore. Swimming is good for you.

I love Sheryl Crow's voice. And tons of other folks do, too.

Have you seen that ad in Electronic Musician - the guy who claims he has a program that will teach you perfect pitch? I wanna get it, just to see what in helll he is selling.

Speaking of which - that mag also has an article on builidng enclosures for your speaker - you play it loud, but it does not bother the neighbors. On that note - take it from me - seriously - you do not want tinitis. My ears ring 24/7. For the last two years. Turn it down, wear earplugs, dont listen to Van Halen in the back of a '67 Buick Skylark for two years in high school, what ever it takes to avoid tinitis. Mine is not bad, yet. It is always there, but I only notice it when it gets quiet around me.

Did I mention to protect your hearing?? You do not need to be next to that amp!

Your voice sounds just fine. Finish a couple of those songs - then sing 'em like you mean it. And we know you do. We all do.

I never really liked country - but that Keith Urban song sure is good. ( I guess that is pop....)

Wow. I am all over the map tonite.

Have a great evening. G'night, all.

HEY!!! FF!! HI!!!!!!

FAR, I think that perfect pitch stuff in magazines is a racket, but I don't actually know. I just think it's more often the result of genetics, plus a lifetime spent hearing and understanding music. Here's a link to some interesting work on the subject:

http://perfectpitch.ucsf.edu/ppstudy.html

I'd love to see that speaker enclosure.

Don't know from Keith Urban, but I love country. I don't get the current "FM country" stuff though. I think it's at least partly the production - everything's compressed and clipped and has no dynamics. It seems to be engineered and mastered the same as dance music.

GC

"Tequila Makes Her Clothes Fall Off" makes me laugh.

And I like "Whiskey Lullabye" for the ache in the harmony of the chorus. Makes you feel like YOU are the one who's been drinking. It hurts just like that.

Oh, and I don't have perfect pitch. Scored dead average among the non-perfect pitch folks on the test. Cool thing, all in all. I wonder how I would've scored when I was in high school and playing music all the time.

I hope you don't mind if I just sit here, and listen while I watch the fire. The flames can have a soothing effect on a person.

SS

I found out yesterday that sparrow and tinman are married.

I felt nothing when I learned this.

Then I heard how unpleasant they continue to make things for car4love, and became furious about that.

Then I went out with friends and stumbled across evidence that women like me.

There ya go, Binder.

GC

No chit chirlock...duh!

Binder and the boys are going to want details though Gray. <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/grin.gif" alt="" />

Good grief! I couldn't figure out what part of your post NOT to quote. First {{GC}} for NOT feeling anything and {{{Car4love}}} for the sucky way those two still have to torture that poor woman and her children. <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/mad.gif" alt="" />

And a big ~thwack~ for just NOW realizing you have something to offer women! sheesh...ya think we told ya enough? Love ya, GC and my prayers for car4love.

"The deepest truth I have discovered is that if one accepts the loss, if one gives up clinging to what is irretrievably gone, then the nothing which is left is not barren but is enormously fruitful. Everything that one has lost comes flooding back out of the darkness, and one's relation to it is new--free and unclinging. But the richness of the nothing contains far more. It is the all-possible, it is the spring of freedom."

Robert Bellah, from Beyond Belief

I like that, gc.

-ol' 2long