I still wanna know if SS ever had 'ghetti pie tho.

Yes.
Probably not your version, but W makes it sometimes. The twins love it. I like it - love is reserved for W.

SS

Kimmy,
Thanks for your story. It's getting more difficult for me to cope with........... in some ways, and easier in others.

I know we all have stories, if we think. It brought some memories flooding back to me, both good, and bad.

I have more tolerance now, than I used to have. More patience.

It affects me emotionally more though - it almost makes me cry sometimes. How can they ever be happy?
It brings a kind of sadness. I think of what Jesus said in Matthew 23:37 "O Jerusalem, Jerusalem, thou that killest the prophets, and stonest them which are sent unto thee, how often would I have gathered thy children together, even as a hen gathereth her chickens under her wings, and ye would not!"

How often it is that people turn away from the very thing that would save them, or bring them the happiness they look for.

I was part of a story about the other side of that coin. It worked out better for the one in the accident than yours did. They were more honest, and were rewarded for it.

SLH,
Happy Birthday. I can't remember how many years, but you are young at heart, so It really doesn't matter. Many happy returns, always and forever.

Oh, and Kimmy,
I like whole wheat, and the "on a diet" method of cooking too. I need it, (sigh) but often it is more enjoyable anyway. And thanks for remembering.

I'm getting ready to go away to the mountains for the weekend. With W and the twins. Love long weekends.

SS

Weaver,
Thanks............. you said it better.
Keep it up, will ya. It makes me happy to see you do so well. Is the happy as good now, as good as the pain was bad back then? I hope its better, and continues to improve.

Yes, please keep it up.

SS

It's like stepping out of the darkness into the light, that is the difference and it is huge. But still it is like childbirth, hard to remember the pain in light of what came from it.

It was worth it to me now, it was a gift. I know that everyone thinks I'm a nut for thinking that, but I would not have grown or really began any kind of real understanding without that period of my life.

I feel calm, at peace, centered, cheerful and incredibly excited about the future. Not just for Paige's and my new life with GB in a new state, but because I know I am about to begin to fulfill my true purpose and I have never felt so close to God as I do now. Well that's not entirely true, but now it is different... I am finally on the other side of need.

Do you know what I mean SS?

<FL coming up to the campfire from out of nowhere...>

Hi weaver, you sitting here?

SS, I posted a beautiful poem for FL and CN this AM and I think you would enjoy it to. It's like we all expect so little when we could have so much. Why are we all so afraid of happiness? Is it the shame that makes us ask for so little? To expect so little, to think so small and then to suffer so much when all we had to do was ask for what we really wanted and then allow ourselves to accept it?

So here's my poem of the day:

I bargained with Life for a penny,
And Life would pay no more,
However I begged at evening
When I counted my scanty store;

For Life is a just employer,
And gives you what you ask,
But once you have set the wages,
Why, you must bear the task.

I worked for a menial's hire,
Only to learn, dismayed
That any wage I had asked of Life,
Life would have willingly paid.

~~Jessie B. Rittenhouse




I'm jealous. Have fun! <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/laugh.gif" alt="" />

Hey FL! Wow it's good to see you in Romper Room, I mean at the campfire. <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/grin.gif" alt="" />

ugh, i didn't see that a new page was added!!

are you still here?

i tried sharing something with DH last night.

either i'm nuts or the man has 0 ablity to respond to me (because he has 0 emotions for me???)

how do i figure out which is the case?????

Oh boy you are asking the wrong person. JL is the one who is good at communicating.

Fl, if he had 0 feelings for you he would be gone.

If it were me though, in your shoes, I think I would become bright and shining, like a shining star. Nobody can resist sparkly things.

That's what I would do and let him come to me. Lovingly indifferent, mysterious...while making a happy, good smelling home. Happiness is infectuous you know, he won't be able to resist.

I might also start reading up on the Distance/Pursuit Dynamic.

That's what I would do if I were you. I'd try it for say three months and then gage the progress in the marital dept.

i just don't know if i can buy into that stmt.

He would have a very hard time financially cutting it without me <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/frown.gif" alt="" />

plus he is very committed to the family. (NOTE: family, not me).

i don't think he has neg emotions toward me, just none.

i HATE being the bread owner!! I HATE having that hanging over my head as the main reason of my worth.

FL, I responded to you on your thread, and I am going to try and copy these posts over there so you have your ongoing journal in one place.

weaver, i'll go look there, but i purposely didn't post there because i didn't want to contaminate it with negativity. know what i mean?

weaver:

This was really neat.

-ol' 2long

Really, really neat.

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Weaver,
I know what you mean, and you are right on.

In a way, I wish I could stay and talk. The fire, and the conversation are both burning bright.

Where we live, it rarely snows. Where we are going for the weekend (35 miles away) it snows lots, and lots. Storm coming over shortly - in progress now actually. The twins want to get snowed in. Nice thought, but I doubt it.
Wouldn't bother me though, for a while. I'm taking lots of books, some board games, and good food. I'm not taking my W, she's going with me. I like that part of life.

Weaver said:
If it were me though, in your shoes, I think I would become bright and shining, like a shining star. Nobody can resist sparkly things.

Another profound truth surfaces on an MB thread. What a wonderful suggestion.

Those who learn to shine, and make it part of their nature, will be happy, and attract others who want the same.

Weaver, your sparkly nature is showing through so much now days. I like it, it really does look good on you.

SLH,
Have a nice weekend. I see HE will be gone a lot in the near future. That used to be a huge problem.
Is it still?
I know I shouldn't worry..........

Kimmy, I had another post on the tip of my fingers last night - to you.
I couldn't get on, it said too many connections. Now it's lost to me.

Thanks though, for everything. This life really is a test. I think you are heading for an A+.

Gray,
I've been thinking a lot about you these last few days. I thought you were on MB less because you were doing so well, and had too many other things to do.

Is that not the case?

I don't mean to pry, but I care.

Hi J,
There are a lot of feelings/thoughts connected with what is happening to you that haven't been discussed. That's fine, I think you need time. However, please know people understand, and pray for you, and care about the outcome.

SS

>Those who learn to shine, and make it part of their nature, will be happy, and attract others who want the same.


Ohhh Mrs. B! A SPARKLY...Can I have it????

Sorry. Channeling the Secret of Nimh.

I know what you mean, SS...I think up wonderful, lovely words when I am not around the computer...words that make one cry with joy...and in the morning they have burned away with the burgeoning of dawn.

But de nada...they make me happy to think of them every night...almost like a game.

really cool analogy weaver!

Hi SS!

The Secret of Nimh! Man, I love you, Kimmy!!!

SS, he probably will be gone a lot in the future. At least the near future. Ti always sprints really hard the first year or so of a new job, as if he has to prove his worth. . . I just know that he (and we) can't continue at this particular pace. However, he has assured me that this overachiever behavior won't continue beyond the initial dash to make himself invaluable. Of course, once he makes himself invaluable, ther are all kinds of demands made on him. . .

But the good news is this: with his new interest in HNHN and relationship dynamics, he has made a ton of amazing changes that I had never envisioned, never even dreamed. In fact, it was a startling discovery to realize that he is far better at this than I am! So I have great hope for the future, even if it does take him away a bit more than I'd like.

And did I mention the pay was better? LOL