Hi always,


I read a little of what is going on in your sitch. I am so very sorry you are in the pain of your WH adultery too. Please becareful. Please get tested for EVERYTHING!

It is scary, I have no contentment like I used to. I am constantly wondering...what is next...on edge. How to get through the day? I am so sad always!! It's Christmas time I should be happy, and I'm not. I can't even fake happiness for the children, I am so greived by all of the mess.

I hope you find all the answers you need Always. I'll be prayin for ya. I know with God all things are possible. God wants you to know. You ask Him to show you ALL you need to know concerning your H and He will show you. He did it for me, he will do the same for you.

Lady

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(((Ladysheep)))

I hope your MD visit Tuesday gives you some good news. ((LS))

Thanks Jean....I hope so too!

Lady:

You don't feel like your faith is strong enough to TRUST IN THE LORD to help you through this...

I noticed that you say that you have NO CONTENTMENT...

"The LORD is my shepherd...I shall not want...."

Hi Mimi,

Yes...The Lord is the only One I trust at this point, but my faith is weak, and I am weak.

And no I am not content. I feel I am pressed on every side!
I am very distressed!


Lady

Joshua 1:9 "I command you--be strong and courageous! Do not be afraid or discouraged. For the LORD your God is with you wherever you go."

It's a good verse to remember. God is with you through everything. And anxiety is nothing but the fear of things yet to come, which may or may not come to pass. Why spend 50% of life on fear and distress when we have God on our side. I know it's discomforting to be going through trials when we have no control over them. But let God be there with you one day at a time.

Thanks Askme, I know God is with me. I feel Him, and hear Him. It's just hard to be strong right now. You don't know how much I want to be strong right now. You don't know how I wish I was strong enough to pack up the kids and go far far away right now. So the Lord needs to be strong for me at this point. I can't bear much more.

I don't know if anyone would feel "strong" going through this.

But thanks anyway.

Just please pray for me.

Why do you say this, Lady?

We are encouraging you to develop your strength. Do you see that as being uncaring of us?

We are encouraging you to develop your strength. Do you see that as being uncaring of us?
No Mimi I don't think that is uncaring of you, why would you say that????

I just don't have strength right now...in fact I am very weak....that is all I am saying. It's a wonder I am able to get out of bed every day....I am feeling very depressed.

Please don't judge my faith at such a time as this. I know God will take care of us, I'm just not strong enough to handle what has happened. I guess I am still feeling all the feelings of being totally betrayed by my H.

Lady

I've been at your same place or EVEN WORSE, Lady... Believe me, though, this is not a CONTEST that I want to win...

I had to pull myself up and NOT GIVE INTO THE SADNESS OR DEPRESSION or I never would have made it...

I believe that you are STRONGER than you think that you are...

You have to TELL YOURSELF...CONVINCE YOURSELF that you can make it...

Really, I bet that I could OUTSCORE you on the LOSSES and BETRAYALS that I suffered and pulled through....

FIGHT THIS, LADY.....

YOU CAN DO THIS...WITH THE HELP OF OUR LORD AND SAVIOUR...HE WILL CARRY YOU THROUGH....

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I went to the Dr's again today, due to the constant pain in my chest.
Dr. says I have anxiety. Go figure!!!
He wanted to give me some meds, but I told him I would rather not start any prior to my surgery.

But I'm relieved it's not something wrong with my heart or lungs. They ran an EKG and Exray, and bloodwork. I'm still very anemic.

It was the same PA we saw last Friday, that diagnosed my H
last Friday. They all said didn't we just see you on Fri.?
I'm sure we were the talk of the whole Dr's office, I was so ANGRY!!

When they first took us in Fri., you know when they take you to a room weigh you and all, and ask you what you are there for??? There was about 5 nurses in the room and Assistants too. I said outloud, "my H says he has a mole, I want to make sure it's not an STD!!" <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/eek.gif" alt="" /> <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/shocked.gif" alt="" /> I guess I wasn't very discreet about it.


I tried to get a talk with my H Dr., but he was busy. I was allowed to talk to the Dr's nurse. I told her what my H said about his Dr. saying it was a mole. And I told her that H was diagnosed with genital warts as of Friday. I told her I didn't think the Dr. said that it was a mole prior (meaning my H probably lied). But if so I would like to see documentation to that by my H. I told her my H told me he told his Dr. about the prostitute. She said my H probably didn't tell him anything. But she cannot by privacy law tell me anything. I told her I know, but I wanted them to know what my H had said and did and the Dr. should be aware of everything concerning my H. So she is telling the Dr.
He has been his Dr. for many years. I didn't tell my H about my conversation with the nurse. So anyway I hope my H gets a 2x4 from his Dr next time he sees him.
This is the same Dr. that has saw my H healed of Hep C!!

Lady

Lady just be careful with the stress. You might want to do some things for yourself like exercise, or walks just to relax. Take time out for you.

I saw where your husband was referring to genital warts as moles. There are also skin tags that look like genital warts. I have known people to get panicky over skin tags just to find out they aren't warts.

Went to the Dr. this morning. I have no lesions. He didn't need to do an internal because he did one last Thurs. He has never seen lesions. I am relieved. Dr. said I should forgive him, if he does it again well then you know... I have been working on forgiveness all these months, now this. But I know I will be alright, I just don't know if H will be alright.

Askme*** no, skin tags are soft "flaps" of skin. You know those irritating flaps of skin that you would get on the neck or under the arms, and they can grow on the gentilia area too. Warts have a distinct look, either cauliflower shaped lumpy look, or look like a ordinary raised smooth skined wart, or a scaly look. There is a distinct difference in the look of a skin tag versus a wart

How I wish I could excercise, I know it would help my anxiety ...but I can't right now because of my condition. I can barely make it through the grocery store without problems. After surgery, I will have to find a workout program of some sort.

Well, finally, some good news.

{{{Lady}}}

Sorry to hear about your sitch. But I am glad that you are OK. I am sending up prayers for you.

God Bless
LaShell

Well, finally, some good news.

So true Believer, there's just been too much bad news the past 5 months.

Though.... I am concerned about my H now. He is not discussing much about it with me.

I don't know where our SF life will be from now on.
Dr. says use condom, but we know that doesn't protect from GW, and none while he has the GW.

I just can't take that chance even after they are removed.
I don't know what the answer is except we live a no SF marriage...and that is bad news......Will that lead him to look elsewhere again???....I just don't know what to do.
I don't want to take a chance of any disease entering my body!!!!!

Any ideas????

Lady

Lady - I read a little on the internet. Four or 5 sources said that the virus that causes warts is not the one that causes cervical cancer.

"External genital warts are primarily a cosmetic issue caused by the nononcogenic HPV subtypes, mostly subtypes 6 and 11." - Postgraduate Medicine

That does not mean that your husband doesn't have the other virus also though.

Since you plan to stay married, I suggest that you see some type of specialist and find out EXACTLY which virus he has.

Hi Believer...thanks.

Yes, there are many types. I was thinking the same as you because they are different subtypes. He will see the Dermatologist next Monday. From what I read they should have the capabilities to test what subtype it is. Some GW subtypes are carcenogenic, lets hope it's not one of those.
I have to tell you one of the GW looks terrible. It looks different from the other 2 which look like a normal warts.
I'm a little worried.

I don't have to worry about my cervix because it is going with my uterus.


We put the Christmas tree up tonight.
DS15 put the lights on, then he said "Mom don't we need to put the garlic on next?" I said "Yeah, we could sprinkle a little of that on there too." <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/eek.gif" alt="" /> <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/grin.gif" alt="" /> <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/laugh.gif" alt="" />

It's good that he is going to a specialist. Yes they can test and figure out what type it is.

I hope you will talk to a doctor who has the time to explain all of this to you. It is very complicated. The big threat is to your cervix if it is the bad type, but looks like you won't have that worry.

Also I read that something like 75% of women of child bearing age have been exposed to HPV.

I think you need to have a clear understanding of all of this and what risks you would or would not be taking by having sex with your husband. I almost (note I said ALMOST) feel sorry for your husband. What a mess he has made.