bumping this up. I understand the reasons for the change of identity but don't want you to get lost on page 3!
Let us know how it goes with WS today. TT
Thanks TT! Wow What a weekend I have had. (WARNING - EPIC NOVEL COMING UP!)
Cant say I was too strong when he arrived Sat morn. He said 'hello' to me, quite sheepishly. I said 'are you ok?' he said 'so/so'. I went over to him and I said 'I understand you are angry but you must understand that I AM VERY ANGRY TOO. And I need support. My friends are my support system. Ok, so you read things you don't appreciate, well, I've been through [censored] and back and I don't appreciate that either. Don't I deserve to have my friends support me?'
He said he supposed so and yes, he understood why but he was upset that everyone said bad things about her - HAH. He said he can understand why they say bad things about him but she doesn't deserve it'
I said 'oh no, that's right - she doesn't!'
So he hugged me then and said 'Id had a bad day, I was in a bad mood and finding those just made it worse.'
I said 'well, I had a bad day too but getting those from you just made it worse.'
And he then left with DS to go to dancing.
He msged me from there a few times and then msged to say he had to play 2 games of soccer that day.
So he got home at 10.45ish and I said 'have u made up your sports drink?' and he said 'no, i bought one this morning cause I didn't think I'd have a chance.'
I said 'you mean, you thought you'd have the sh!ts and p!ss off straight after dancing?'
He said 'maybe that too, but Ive calmed down now.'
So we all went to soccer and yet again he dispeared for 15mins (they are the longest toilet trips I tell ya!)
And the kids had a great time, and I had a nice time with one of the other wives (who doesn't know) and that was that.
We came home, he said 'wanna watch a dvd?' I said 'OK!'
We watched Billy Connelly after the kids went to bed and then he started looking up motorbikes on the internet.
At midnight I said 'well, IM going to bed. You look exhausted and should probably sleep on the lounge seeings as you'll need to be back here early tomorrow anyway'
He said 'perhaps' (which is always his no!) and I knew he wouldn't cause he hadn't even had a shower after soccer by this time.
I went to bed and at 1.10am he left (again I heard the pacing for over an hour - its good to have wooden floorboards sometimes! LOL)
I msged him 10mins later and said 'Drive Safely, be careful Ni Ni'
He wrote back 10mins later and said 'You are supposed to be alseep! R not home tonight,she at a girls night with friends. I'll have a shower, get my clothes ready for tomorrow and have a nap.'
Sure enough, 7am he arrived back here this morning. Looked tired out of his mind and so todays fiascos began....
Took the kids to their athletics presentation (they both got trophies - were very excited! lol). He was messaging when I looked back to where our seats were (as I had just moved up the front to take a photo of the kids on the stage).
Then we went to McDonalds for lunch. He was messaging from the seat as I was ordering the food.
Then he took Boy to the toilet - and they were gone for 10mins and he said 'OMG DS just sat and sat and it kept coming and coming' and I said 'oh - plenty of time for you to text message then'. And he said 'ahh - yeah' with a puzzled look on his face.
Oh - this morning when i said 'you must hvae only gotten 2 hours sleep' he said to me 'im just not tired' and I said 'Hmm, maybe it's guilt? Ya think?'
(I actually DO think it's the ADs, but he hasn't been back to the Dr since he was put on them 5 wks ago and I dont think they are working for him)
Well, by this afternoon, no actually, whilst I was at Macca's I thought 'geez, this just isn't WORTH it, ya know. It's all games, I dont know what's truth and lies any more.'
So I came home and he got BACK on the internet to look at bikes (more of the mid-life crisis) and I did a load of washing, unpacked the dishwasher, cleaned up the loungeroom (all things I wouldn't necessarily have done in his presence before, or after being out IYKWIM). Then I played a board game with the 2 older ones whilst DD18mth was sleeping. They then watched tv and I went to put clothes away and then sat on lounge up stairs with TV on and read a mag.
Just kept away from him.
Well, he started pacing about 4.15pm. And I thought - yep - it's coming soon. (oh - Id heard his ph go off a few times in the car after Maccas). And sure enough at 5 he said to me 'I'm going now' So I sat there and said 'oh right, yep, what do you explain to the kids' (cause at least every other time the kids have been in bed when he has left) 'I'll tell them Im going to my friends'. So I heard him come down and tell them something like that and DS got upset and he said "I'll be here early in the morn to take DD to school and D to babysitter'
So he comes upstairs and gives me a kiss, just a peck and said 'see u in the morning, ok?'
I said 'ok' and he left and I locked the doors. DD18mnths cried and cried calling 'dada' and then she climbed up ONTO the cabinent and tried to OPEN the frong door!
THEN.....
5 mins later my phone rings and it was him asking if his wallet was in backpack, sure enough it was, so he he turned around.
Well, this is where things got interesting.
I was busy downstairs when he came in and he said 'i'd just gotten to the petrol station when i thought where is it, lucky I checked'.
I said 'well u better sneak out because D will cry again'
'How long did she cry for before?'
'5 mins'
'Is that why the screen door was locked?'
I ignored that comment and said 'she actually climbed up onto the bench and tried to open the door! Little monkey'
And he said again 'is that why the screen door was locked?'
I looked at him and said 'No, the screen door was locked because I locked up - Its not like anyone is coming home later tonight.' I didnt say it sadly, I didnt say it sarcastically, I just said it.
He walked over to me (I had my hands in teh back pockets of my jeans) and he reached his arms around me and hugged me, then he kissed me - and I mean KISSED me! and his hands were roaming. I went WEAK at the knees I tell ya! OMG! Well, maintaining my composure (at least TRYING TO!) I said (i think!) 'D's downstairs you'd better sneak out now'
And I stood where I was while he left and he looked back as he closed the door.
AND I FELT SOOOOO EMPOWERED! I dunno why! I think cause I acted so blaze about it all and he came to me.
But.......
a few mins later my bubble burst and I dont know how much is games and how much isn't.
I had left my mobile sitting on the bench for the arvo as I went around and did things. I THOUGHT Id gotten off it msgs from other people regarding HIM or HER.
Well, I happened to look in my sent files and at 3.50pm he had sent himself, from my phone the msg I had written to his work friend about Root getting the job in Ncstle.
Now - I am peeved. NOt because the msg was nasty, it wasn't. In fact at the end of it it says 'I just dont know what to believe any more from who was my D husband and best friend.'
but I peeved that a) I didnt DELETE the bloody msg and b) that he snooped, foudn it and didnt delete that he had found it (alhtough I think I might have caught him by surprise as he sent it to himself twice) and c) that I have implicated that his friend is msging me.
So I suddenly DIDNT feel so in control any more! LOL
So I msged said friend and warned her and she msged back that 'she didnt give a hoot that it was common knowledge that Root had the job and he was a prat to be looking on my phone'
So at least, if he mentions it to her ( which he IS likely to do - he thinks he's in the right!) she can at least know it's coming.
So anyway - that has been my eventful, but non-eventful weekend.
And now the fun begins - back to work tomorrow and because it's a pupil free day I have a meeting on the other side of Sydney and can't get all 3 kids to their 3 different places they need to be. So WH is coming early in morn to do 2 of the runs. So I will see him in the morn (as if it were normal) , then in the arvo when I start teaching dancing, and then tomorrow night when we go to the MC.
Oh - thats right - I said to him when he arrived Sat morn 'so are we still doing the MC, and he said 'yes'' But as I say - not sure how much is games these days, "I'll appease Juzzie and go, she cant' say I didnt try then". That kind of cr^p!
Then back to schedule, Tues he will be here in morn and arvo, Wed we wont see him. (but he has an extra soccer game and he checked with me tonight about whether I was bringing the kids. I said ' have to teach') I am worried he is going to take HER to that game cause he knows we wont be there. I will actually say something to him about that, prob Tues or maybe at the MC. Some of these soccer ppl know,, but only ones that worked with him years ago and are 'friends'. The others dont, and theyve seen the kids and I there for the last 3 weeks. I would NOT appreciate him taking ROOT to the night game we can't go to.
I did msg him tonight to ask him to check with one of the other wives on Wed night about whether this toy we brought home is her sons. So *hopefully* that might remind him that ppl will be there that know us both.
Anyway - he msged me on his way BACK to Roots tonight - about some strange thing he saw in the traffic. But of course Ive not heard from him since cause he's arrived to her outstretched arms.
Ok - this is waayyy tooooo loooong but I had to let it all out!! I haven't been able to get on here for 2 days!! Been killing me! LOL!
Hugs
J