The greatest freedom you can get as a BS is the understanding that you don't NEED your spouse in your life and that you will be just fine without him/her.
Reaching that level of self confidence will make you much more attractive to your wayward.
I know it's tough. Fear controls you.
Don't let it.
This is also the goal for all of us I would hope. Being controlled by someone is not being loved by them. Its like having to ask for a present every birthday because they wouldn't give you one otherwise and then being happy because you got them to give it to you. Or, making some sort of action,behavior the criteria of whether you loved them or not. Its all Crazy.
She must know that your love for her does not depend on her actions and that you will love her regaurdless. You don't need her to act a certain way to give her loveing attention.
Thats Plan A and it is no picnic and even harder now because your taker is really hurting bad. All your pain, fear and frustration is coming from the taker part of your personality, we all have it, its the little soft underbelly childish baby in us that reacts out of fear because we care about anything but being fed, held and comforted. You are to feed her taker
AS IT CORRESPONDS TO A HEALTHY MARRIAGE RELATIONSHIP Do you see? You don't go outside what is to be something healthy for it.
For example: You come home from the store, you walk in with "Hi Babe, how was your day today BTW?", she is pouty and quiet and you know somethings up, you ignore what your instints say and do not ask her about those obviuos signs just say, "Are you OK?" She says "What do you care?" You laugh and smile and say " AW honey, you know I do, can I help?". She says "Yeah you can watch the kids while I go out forthe evening"> You say, "AW well I was hoping to go out with you tonight, I already have a babysitter lined up. Did you have other plans? Tell me about what your gonna do. Is it fun? Can I come?"
Now if she says "Its none of your business, I am going out with freinds, I know what your doing, your just acting nice to get something now and you were allways a pr!ck before. Stop being so fake. I don't love you anymore and no matter what you do its not gonna change. I'm gonna get a D as soon as I figure out the details. Don't try to Bullchit me into thinking you have changed. You are just as selfish as you were before and its all an act"
You say "Ok well I was a pr!ck before I agree but I am not now. I understand you think its fake. I really have changed though and all I want is for our marriage to be healed and I am doing my part as a Man to do that. Ive allready appoligized to you for my past selfishness and I am acting the way I should now. Yes its actions but not an act." Keeping a positive countanance and a definate manner about you will be the hardest thing to do in your sitch cuz your scared to death. Its imperitive tho. She needs to see and belive what you are saying is true. It needs to be true. You must beat down your taker and your fears and trust love for this.
Its extremly hard to do and their will be pain involved on your part. This is why Plan A in a situation involving an active affair is designed to have a time limit. If your wife was currently involved with someone I think most of us would not be hammering you about Maning up but in your case the affair is not there and you have support from her freinds so Plan A is all about you becoming attractive to your spouse.
To be attractive you need to not need her. Sorry thats the fact Jack. I will go out on a limb here andsa some things that may sound sexest to our politically correct society and I might get 2X4ed.
Most women want to be protected by a Man and will follow someone only if they respect Him. Why would someone listen to anybody whos very emotional stability depended on them listening? They don't. They want rock steady confidance before they TRUST them. OK well confidance about what? Confidance about LOVE. Not the finances, or the stock market or the state of the union. About LOVE. A love that doesn't depend on the reciever but is present in the giver REGUARDLESS of reciprocation. Can you as a man recieve that kind of love WITHOUT depending on your Wife to supply it? THATS what she needs now because she has stopped being your reason for security and you have to reach out and get it from another source. A source not governed by temporal circumstances and a source that is willing to die for the relationship.
I don't know why its so hard for men to see why women go for the tough guys, they see someone who is just stupid enough to fight for them in the possesive arrogence of the bad boy. Someone who would die before giving them up but live in a code of honor and respect.
So where is that source for you? Where do you find the strength? How can you convince her that you will be strong and Ok reguardless of what she does so she can lean on you again? Well you can fake it for a bit and we will help you but ultimatly you will need to be secure NO MATTER WHAT. Thats what I was saying in the beginning. Isn't that the point? Fact is you will live, and you will get over her leaving if she did. The security she needs from you cannot be dependant on the security she gives you. Shes to smart for that. Im sorry but the truth is waiting for her to make you feel better so you can make her feel better will never work. If it did she would leave you for someone stronger because ppl see right thru this most of the time. Intuitionally if not with objective thought and observation.
Its time to cowboy up and seek the love you give from a source besides your wife. I don't care if its God or some self help guru from the bookstore you need to trust Love to BE your source and believe in it more than your feelings. Here is a biblical referance although I don't know for sure what your belief system is.
Proverbs 3:5
Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding
I don't wanna sound preachy but it will work better for all of your family if us weak and frail ppl don't put our trust in our "feelings" for each other.
Agin tho Thats JMO