Thats wierd my arm has been in pain all day also and driving didn't help I am going to take a vicadin when I go to bed. The bad thing is they give me a headache in the morning.

They keep me groggy the whole next day. I cannot function after taking them. They work for the pain, but keep me loopy

Sue we really need to hook up together on messenger so we can have a real time chat! Interested???

Maybe I will take 1/2 a tablet. It should be enough to take away the pain so I can sleep.

I'm sorry you are hurting too

its nice to know I'm not alone. My pain is nothing compared to yours!

never minimize you pain, whether it is physical or emotional. Pain is what the person experiencing it says it is.

thanks you always have a kind word,but remember you too have pain and you need to not look at it for less than what it is. Have a good night.

you too. I'm going to finish watching a movie and go to bed.

By the way, if you don't mind my asking what area are you from?

Hi Sue, Sorry I logged off last night but H was home and I felt I needed to spend time with him however it did not turn out to be good.

I had a bad weekend a rollercoaster of feelings after hearing of these other unfaithful H's and looking at both of them as men that would never cheat. Needless to say I had a bad night,and took it out on my H. I told him my deep feelings I don't know if he could handle it or not but the truth is I don't want to deny him of sex,because I know that would become a real issue in him starting up again with OW, or maybe someone else(I really don't think he is the type to just go around having A's he never has)but the truth is every time he touches me I can just see him with her and it drives me crazy and I just can't get in the mood I feel like I am in a real catch 22 situation.Can you relate?

He tells me things like "boy did I screw up and I will pay for it the rest of my life" it hurts but the truth is he did and now I am in pain and it is going to take awhile for it to go away.I know that he felt bad because he came and had lunch with me at work and when I got home he had done the dishes and was in making the bed!!!!He NEVER does that not unles he is trying to make up for something. Well I wont bore you any more I would like to say that I really enjoyed chating the past two nights you never answered my question though,would you be interested on meeting on messenger once in a while to chat? I know you are busy but maybe once a week or twice a month it would be nice. And I live in California.What about you were are you from? <img border="0" title="" alt="[Wink]" src="images/icons/wink.gif" />

Hey Sue,

Sorry to hear that your knee was hurting. Did the 1/2 tab of vicodin work? So your H is off on a mysterious trip again huh. I know how your feeling and all the questions and thoughts going through your head. Sorry that the evil people made you go on the roller coaster again.

Anyhow I'm glad you found me. I'm going through a terrible time right now so I've been on MB alot for the support.

I am almost finished with school. No doubt the end is near. I've decided to take the next semester off to relax and study for the boards and find a job. I'm gonna start picking up applications this weekend. Some places hire new grads. I'll have to start on the RN thing in a few months though because I know if I wait too long I'll never go back.

I need a job for sure soon because my MGIB isn't cutting it and my sons daycare rates went up by $40 dollars a week. Isn't that ridiculous. My brothers are on summer vacation and said they would help for just a lil bit of $. Thank god for family.

YOu know what this is your thread sorry for blabbering away. I hope you feel better Sue. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

Melinda

Hi Sue,
Just checking in on you. I won't say much, becaue you don't need to get all stired up about things, and if I tell you things are fine, you will call me a lier.

I read back and got caught up on how you are doing. Wish I could help more.

Still praying for you, and still have faith in you.

For what it's worth -

SS

Hi Sue,
I love my H too. It makes me uncomfortable even thinking about drained Love account.

SS, hi. I am lurking, will post on my thread probably next week. Nothing positive to add, other than tonight have another session.
FBOW

Ginger - I don't know if we have IM, I can check it out. I go back to work next week, so I cannot do that in the evenings. I do peek in on MB at work. I break up my breaks through out the evening. I've never been one for long breaks.

The sex thing - used to be hard for me. Now it is not. I don't think about them. Why should I. (once it a while it is a problem)

Melinda - you can babble anytime you want.
Good luck to school, and do the RN thing, it pays better. I don't know about your area, but here, alot of the LPN do the same work and RN, just get paid less. There is some things LPN's cannot do, but in the day to day of the work, the basics are the same.

SS - You are a big help. You and FBOW have been there from the beginning. It gets hard to know what to say when the situation is same o' same o'

H has been calling every morning. He never did that before. I'm pretty sure she did not go this trip. That is a relief.

Hi Sue, I understand how busy you are I just figure it would be an easier way to chat. Get to know each other a little better!I don't even know if the time thing would work are you west coast or east,or in the middle somewhere?

Maybe it is just me or part of the recovery I seem to dwell on them together more now then I did when I first found out it seems so strange.

Glad to hear your H has been checking in, that must make you feel a little better. Has he told you where he is yet?

Talk to you soon.

All I knew was that he was in ND. Now, how can someone spend a week in ND and not know where they are??? I can only laugh to myself at the idiocy of his thinking. If I don't then I will get mad and frustrated. I don't have time for that.

Ginger, maybe we could chat once in a while on weekends. I dont' know if we have IM or not. I will have to check it out.

H came home this morning. I've never traveled by RV, so I don't know how well one sleeps in those. H was too well rested. When he called he said he was in on town which takes about 40 min from there to our house. He was home about 15 min later, which is about the time it takes to get from her home to ours.

H is talking about us taking the kids to FL in a couple of years and wants us to start planning next summers family vacation. It is really hard for me to make plans for these type of events knowing what I know. I don't want him talking of this stuff in front of the kids because it may not happen. I don't want to plan on a trip that may not happen. I've convinced him we should start a savings account for the FL trip. We want this to the trip of a lifetime for the kids. You know the one that you save for and money is almost no object while on vacation and you don't have to count the pennies. It makes me want to cry when I think about him planning a family vacation like this. Are we going to be a family?

Hi Sue,
I missed you all week I guess you have been real busy,when I got home from work today I said to myself I wonder if Sue's H came home yet or not?What is he thinking and did he bring home a paycheck he was gone working right?Wasn't that what he told you?

Wow a family vacation it would be great and the kind you spoke of with no worries of money, thats the best kind but plans for a year from now,I don't know maybe he is coming around. Has he ever confessed to you about the OW? Or does he think you just don't think anything in your M is wrong? MEN <img border="0" title="" alt="[Mad]" src="images/icons/mad.gif" /> <img border="0" title="" alt="[Mad]" src="images/icons/mad.gif" /> <img border="0" title="" alt="[Mad]" src="images/icons/mad.gif" />

Well I just wanted to say hi, its been a rough week emotionaly for me I don't know what my problem is.Just life I guess. I read here and there are so many that have it worse than me I should just quit crying and move on but for some reason it just isnt that easy.
Take care talk to you soon.
Oh yea do you go back to work tomorrow?If so good luck take it easy on the knee. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" />

I'm supposed to go back to work tomorrow.

He says he has not been paid yet.

He does not know I know. He thinks that I think all is okay

Hi Sue, I just logged on was reading some threads how are you tonight

You mean to tell me that he thinks you have no idea about OW?

Hi Ginger - that's correct. He thinks I'm in the dark about it.