Thanks Star,
I am still trying to find a quiet moment to start my story for you my house is full right now so a moment alone is hard to come by.Mostly it is because my teen D is here and she does not know anything and she may get a little nosey if she sees my typing so I am just trying to be careful be patient I'll get it written soon.

Hey Sue I feel like I thread jacked sorry.How are you?Havent heard from you today hope all is well.Your thread must be like your house a very nice place to visit. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" />

Alright Sue,
I know you are out there somewhere. It's not that we don't trust you, but you really should report in. What are you thinking, leaving me all alone here with Ginger and Star?

Ah, sorry, it is your thread. You don't have to come until you're ready. I'll go now.

SS

BTW, Ginger and Star, I was just teasing Sue.

Ginger, I am a guy, just so you know.
I would hate for you to think that some of this bad humor was done by a real lady.
SS

<small>[ July 08, 2003, 05:06 PM: Message edited by: still seeking ]</small>

Hey Sue,SS is right where are you it is no fun hanging out here with out you.

SS: I'm glad you told me you were a guy not that I care but that way I won't embarrass myself and believe me I am good at that.And I think your sence of humor is great we all need a good laugh now and then especially concidering the type of web site we all hang out at.

Hi all,

I'm here. Yesterday, started out good. I got up, "PAIN FREE", walked normal for a few feet, then my knee hyperextended, boy, that hurt. I was still doing okay. Went to PT, my last visit, and she really worked me over. I ended up calling in at work and took my Vicodin, so, I was totally out of it all afternoon and evening. Today, was catch up day. Alot of running around and stuff.

So, today, I went to work early, I had to leave and take a long lunch. Meeting a man about refinancing the house.

H and kids are trying to talk me into a puppy.

<small>[ July 11, 2003, 10:21 PM: Message edited by: Sue with hope ]</small>

Ginger - hijack anytime you want

STTSI - Cerri was thinking the last Saturday in July. You will have to confirm with her if it is a done deal or not

HI Sue, Glad to hear all is ok. Hope your knee feels better ouch!! that must have really hurt.

I don't know about the puppy thing it sounds like more work for Sue. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Roll Eyes]" src="images/icons/rolleyes.gif" />

How are things going for your boards?

I have the grandbabies,boy am I glad I had my kids young I am worn out and they have my house torn to pieces.They can find the strangest things to play with.But boy are they cute!!!!!

As far as the puppy things goes, I do not train puppies. H knows that. I do not clean up after dogs either. I am a cat person. I love our Husky dearly, I even missed him and stayed up half the night hoping someone would call when he slipped out of his collar. (I put two collars on him, one for chaining him (no fenced yard) and one for tags. I got the call at 3AM. I was so relieved. Dragged kids out of bed and went and got him. (H was working out of town when this happened). I do not clean up the yard after him, H and kids do. That was the rules when we got him, it will be the rules if we take the puppy.

I like cats because they are easier to take care of, and you can leave a cat for a weekend, and he/she will be fine. A dog, you have to either kennel or find someone who will let him out for you.

They were cute.

I'm with you cats are easier but to tell the truth a puppy can melt my heart just like a baby can.But I sure do not like taking care of them they are a lot of work.

How have things been with H since you got home from your weekend? Any loving????? <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" /> <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" /> <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" />

Nope, no loving, they kind you mean. Too exhausted, beside, a 4 year old keeps coming to bed with us. Kind of hard to keep her out, her bed is right next to ours. Boys are in the room that will be hers, we have to repair the room that will be the boys. The ceiling is falling apart. (cheap suspended ceiling). As soon as we are done with the garage, we plan to fix their room and move them into it, paint the room that will be Little Princess, and have a room to ourselves. H has a hard time telling her "no", she is so cuddly with him.

I also think H is hesitant, because the last time, my knee hurt so bad, he felt sorry that he initiated anything. (boy, this knee is sure putting a wet blanket on things.)

Cerri - if you read this, I was in your beautiful state over the weekend. The part of your state I was in is so pretty it should be part of my state. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" />

</font><blockquote><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><hr /><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">Originally posted by Sue with hope:
<strong>Cerri - if you read this, I was in your beautiful state over the weekend. The part of your state I was in is so pretty it should be part of my state. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" /> </strong></font><hr /></blockquote><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">Ohhhhh too funny!! I visited the MN capital with my son this year on a field trip. The guide said they've never gotten over the fact that WI didn't claim the land all the way to the Mississippi, but stopped at the St. Croix. So really, part of your state should be part of mine!!! <img border="0" title="" alt="[Razz]" src="images/icons/tongue.gif" />

So whereabouts were you? It is very pretty over here. We had a chance to fly over the area a couple of years ago on a scout thingie.... From the ground one might be misled into thinking it's a bunch of fields with some trees and hills in the background. But from the air one can see that it's a whole lot of hills and trees with some fields near the road.

I swore I would never live in WI.... I think my exact words were "when he** freezes over." Funny sense of humor the Universe has.... I'm learning not to tempt fate that way. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Wink]" src="images/icons/wink.gif" />

C

Sue,Sorry to hear about the love thing it sounds like your nice weekend was just what you two needed and it would have been nice if you guys could have had some alone time.(you know what I mean) <img border="0" title="" alt="[Wink]" src="images/icons/wink.gif" />

Sounds like you guys have a lot of home projects going on.Glad its you and not me.

H survived the no love thing, last night, H was outside talking to a friend when I got home. Princess was asleep on the chair. He moved her to her bed. I asked him to put her in her bed, so we could at least cuddle. (Both of us were very tired) He did.

Cerri - (edited out, anyone there would be able to figure out who I am if they happen to come here) I think I will claim that as part of MN land. After all, we are the land of lakes so what is one more.

You did not want to be part of the land of cheese. I know, those cheese wedge hats are not a fashion statement.

<small>[ July 09, 2003, 07:53 AM: Message edited by: Sue with hope ]</small>

I asked him to put her in her bed, so we could at least cuddle. (Both of us were very tired) He did.

Wow, very nice.

I know, those cheese wedge hats are not a fashion statement.

Ahhh Wisconsin....ya gotta love it. Cheese hats, green and yellow Packerware (ewwww), and a dead animal head on every wall..... <img border="0" title="" alt="[Roll Eyes]" src="images/icons/rolleyes.gif" />

When we bought our (very undone) house, the living room had those big cabinny beams in it, a spot where a dead animal head must have hung at one time, and a huge ugly wood burning stove. Every contractor we had come to give us a bid ooohed and ahhhed over the stove, I swear I could have sold it 10 times over. (Except of course for the fact that we never get rid of anything.)

C

How funny. I know what you mean about the wood burning stove. I have one too. Teh last owners of my house, put on an addition, it has the cabin look to it. Complete with wood burning stove. H loves it, as far as I go, I can take it or leave it.

Sue,
I have been trying to figure out something to say that would help.

I know you are on hold and I know why, I just rack my brain trying to figure out how to get you through this in better shape.

All kidding aside, I do think you will do well, I do think you are tough and that with your ability and toughness you will come out doing well. It's just that there will be lots of pain in the middle parts, and pain - well, pain hurts.

I worry about your H, I worry if he will ever recover from the bad choices. I worry about the kids who shouldn't ever have to cope with things like this, but they may have to.

Often, I believe your H could come through and be what you need him to be. Sometimes I wonder, and you do too - I think I understand that.

After thinking today, please continue. Still have faith, like you do on good days. Look for good days, try to create them, to bring them about. It will help you know what to do when you get to where you HAVE to know.

Life is interresting, luck is mostly what we make it into. I have faith in you because of what you have made yourself into - that's a compliment, just in case you wondered.

You have lots of friends that care about you. I hope that helps.

SS

SS,

Thank you. You said so much, with so little words.

I worry about the kids too. Regardless of what happens, I will be okay. I know it. It is all about the kids. They are the big reason why I try so hard. They do deserve a complete family if it can be accomplished.

Recently, H has been associating more with family oriented folks, and those who don't have families are committed to their girlfriends. So, that helps.

He has been trying lately. Nicer to me, talks more about the future, buying some land, building a cabin, family vacation next summer and the summer after that. He has the next two planned.

I saw one bad thing today. I have H's car. It is time of an oil change. It was due a month ago, time wise, but is is about 2-3000 miles over the mileage. How could an unemployed man, who stayed home most of the time, be that far over the miles?

HI Sue,

Interesting where has he been driving?

You asked me on my thread how did you stay?
I thought about you today and how funny it was that YOU would ask that.
At first I stayed because I was bound and determind not to fail,everyone said we wouldn't make it we were too young.
Then I stayed for the very same reason you are doing what you do now,the kids needing a home a safe place to come when the world was cruel.
We are the same age but I feel I have already lived what you are living now in a sence,if noone else understands why you do what you do why you choose to stay,I do understand Ive already been there.To others looking from the outside in they can not understand but from the inside you understand completly.

I am so glad to see some small changes in your H.What a nice break for you.Sometimes cuddling is better,its just what you need. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Wink]" src="images/icons/wink.gif" />