Congratulations dear Sue!!!

Another good reason to have some champagne tomorrow when I'm home post-call.

See I dared venturing over here to the scary JFO-place just to check on you.

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I am so proud of you. You have overcome so much hardship to reach your goal. You are truly amazing!!!

Now...one tip for interviews...Anne Taylor suit...and chin up girl...razzle, dazzle them!!!

Love

Hi Sue!!

How are you?

Look I'm a poet,and didn't know it. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" />

TSC, LIT, IP, and everyone else.

Thank you.

I ahve given specialy thougth, but right now, I want to get in somewhere, get some experience behind me, then think about specialy areas.

These are the specialty areas I have considered, L&D, Post Labor/Postpartum, Pediatric Oncology, Burn unit, Rehab. I did my preceptorship at a Rehab Hospital. I loved it. No time to sit on the buns there. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" />

As a new Grad, I will take what I can get for the experience, even if it means working in a Long Term Care Facility. You cannot buy experience.

Hi, I'm swamped at work so I have to be quick.

Have not heard about the job yet. I have another application almost ready to mail today, plus I'm getting 10 more ready.

Something will have to come through.

H has been good. He is being affectionate and stuff. So, the question is, does he want something (which has been past pattern), or is he finally realizing what a wonderful wife he has? I can wait and see. Right now, I want to find work in my new field

I vote he finally realized what a wonderful W he has <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" />

I know something will come through for you.
You have worked long and hard for this.

Hi, I'm swamped at work so I have to be quick.


Quick, call in the Army Corps of Engineers, they are good at draining swamps !!!!!

Oh, wait, you just mean you are busy.

I ought to pay more attention, sometimes I act male. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Wink]" src="images/icons/wink.gif" />

Just checking in, and I see you are still up more than down. You will get that job, I would bet before DEC 1st. Shall we start a pool?

You don't say much about the kids lately - hows the little princess? How's her mom?

SS

I wonder if Sue is making some big decisions right now. Wouldn't surpprise me.

Hey Sue lots of us care, just so you know.

SS

Hi Y'all

Just wanted to let you know I'm still around.

I have not heard about the job. They posted another position, I called and let them know I was interested. So, we will see. The HR rep did comment on how this year, there is not as many positions as last year. The economy has alot to do with it. Why hire new grads when the experienced ones want more hours.

Kids, are doing great. OS, is trying out for Goalie on his Squirt team. first year as a squirt.

MS is still a mite, he will be a squirt next year

(Of course I think they are squirts year round)

Princess, well, she is still the princess. We were watching Princess Diaries, she wants to change her name to Mia, just like Princess Mia.

As far as the WH, right now, who cares. I don't know what Plan I am in. I don't know if I want to be in a Plan. I am tired of how he thinks the world revolves around him. I am supposed to drop everything, rearrange my life to suit him so he can do what he wants. He has total disregard to me and that I just spent the last 3 years of my life working towards a goal that I have wanted since I have been 13 years old. I wonder if he is jealous of my accomplishments.

Besides looking for a nursing job, I am looking for a part time job, incase I cannot find a nursing job. We need the income. Since he has been in the accident, our savings is almost empty. The difference in what we need for bills and expenses, from what we take in I could make up with a part time job, unless a nursing position comes through.

I am sick and tired of my life. Just when I think things will start to get better, they don't.

Sue
I feel just like you.I am sick and tired of my life.Just when I thought I was getting better I have a major set back.I don't even know what plan to do either,I think it is time for my H to plan A me to death.

I know you will get a good job.Try and stay postive,I know it must be hard at times,I feel your frustration believe me I do.Even though I am far away I hope you can feel me sending you just a little bit more strength for one more day.Stay strong my friend,the reward will come.

Hi Sue,
thank you for your note. I am also mainly lurking recently, as I have nothing positive to share. I am too very tired of current situation but I have only myself to blame for the indecision.
We've been hanging around here quite a while, so see you around and I wish you and myself good luck, more stamina and a miracle.
FBOW

I have another interview lined up for 10/22, same hospital, different position.

Mailed off two more applications forms. One for a substitute nurse in my kids school district, the other for another hospital.

I think H is on anti-d's, otherwise, it might be anti-anxiety. I have two drug books, I cannot find one of them, the other is at work. So, I don't recall if it is. I will look it up later.

Yesterday I lost it with H. There were plenty of LB's for everyone. We had been arguing since the night before, and he said the wrong thing. He said I was "stupid". I lost it, and let him have it. And right now, I don't regret it. And I probably won't regret it either. Things are fine now, no hostility, it is like we never argued.

Gott go paint storm window.

I keep hoping and praying that he will turn around and be what he is supposed to be.

You don't say much about your feelings lately, and that is OK. I try to guage how you are by the tone of your posts, and right now you are in getting things done mode - at least it looks like that.

Mostly you need to know that we care, so I will say it again.
We care.
I understand that you know that, but it doesn't hurt to say it again.

Praying you get the job that would be best for you and the kids.

SS

Hi Sue
I just wanted you to know that I am still lurking too. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Wink]" src="images/icons/wink.gif" /> <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" />

I should not say this but I will,I do not regret you LBing for what your H said,he has no right to tell you things like that.You are not stupid.

Definately not stupid and it had to stick in your craw to have your WH say something like that to you. Don't regret it, just move beyond it.

Still thinking of you almost everyday, Sue.

Thanks everyone. I still don't regret losing it. As far as I am concerned he was way out of line, and there i a difference between doing a Plan A and being a doormat. (I've never done the doormat role well)

I am mostly in the doing mode. Too much to do before the snow falls and/or temps drop. Some things cannot be done after the temps drop. Too hard and too cold.

Trying to find work so I can have some sort of financial independence or closer to it.

Mojodiva how is school? Marriage doing okay with you in Nebraska and H and kids in Guam?

Bought the kids halloween costumes last night. In the past I used to make them. I could be more creative. No time this year. I also, could not think of how to create one from what we have. I think I went brain dead.

Kids are playing Go Fish on the floor. They are so cute. The boys let Lil Princess join in. Well, gotta go. Have lots to do today

Hi Sue
You sound happy today.
Enjoy the kids they grow up way to fast.

My H union went on strike last night.Hope it does not last to long.I dont need anymore stress right now.

Hope to chat w/you soon.
Take care.

Sue,
No, we were in a false recovery. I did not demand counseling, I tried to do things the wrong way- no plan, no boundaries, and I did the doormat thing. Last Wednesday I was called by my husband for him to confess that he had been caught by my son kissing a 20 year old woman in my home- the whole thing is nuts and you can catch up at my online journal. He had to hit rock bottom before realizing he was out of control and needed help.

I've asked for a legal seperation during which he is to go to counseling with my children before he rotates back in April. He is saying all the right things and doing what I need him to do. I promise nothing, trying to stay positive and hope he does what needs to be done. In April he will head to Virginia while I finish school, the kids are coming to live with me. He has been smart enough to realize he has to earn my forgiveness and that I do not trust him. I pray everyday that he will see the light and do what he promises over the next two years.

Today was good- he told me he planned on seeking IC while in Virginia and going to counseling with me when he visits us each month. He is hurting, I am hurting, the kids are hurting...but it looks like he actually sees our pain now.

Wish I had better news.

Sue...wanted to bump this for you in hopes you will come back and let us know you are ok. Also wanted to give you an update on my and hubby.

My husband just began individual counseling Thursday. Its the first time he sought help. I have told him that if he continues with individual counseling for the next six months (twice a month at least) and counseling with our kids (at least once a month), I will not file for seperation and will follow him to his next duty station in Virginia.

Things are looking better, but the second he bails on counseling, it is OVER.

I'm here. Mostly in a doing role. I was out of work the other day. My back was hurting, went to chiropractor. It has been hurting for a while. I kept hoping it would go away. It is because of my knee. When I was walking off balance, my back adjusted to it. Now, that i'm walking somewhat normal, my back has been protesting. After my appt., I noticed my knee was hurting again. Probably because my weight is more evenly placed on both legs vs on leg carrying most of me.

It is probably good to fix it now, instead of after I get a job. I have another interveiw next week, I have to return a call to a nursing home, and hope for the VA to call.

Some of H's friends are coming this weekend to help with our garage roof.

As far as me, well, its been up and down. H has been disrespectful alot to me, and well, I am getting very mad about it. Many times I was ready to tell him to pack and leave.

I really don't know how much longer I can continue this. Not this way. I don't know how much he sees her, or if it is even going on any longer.

Well, hopefully, a new job will be in the works before christmas.

Mojodiva - sorry to hear about the latest development. How are you doing. I skimmed your diary. I will go back and read it more when I can. Keep up the work on the fitness program.

Thanks, Sue!

Keep interviewing your butt off!!! As soon as you get your first paycheck, you'll be able to confront and I really can't wait to see what decisions he makes. he may surprise all of us and come clean and try to rebuild your marriage. the problem I see is that he has caused so much emotional pain that you might not want him by then.
You know we are all here for you if you need to vent!