Today I am starting to take control.

Up to today I have been constantly checking my W's emails for any sign of "action". I did check today to see what SKYPE was... something OM mentioned. and was searching for her on it. At first I thought it was some kind of anagram for dirty talk or something... but it is an internet phone. My sons said my WW went out last night to pick up an earset... for her new job... which is true (I think)... but it also recomends an earset for SKYPE.

My WW has locked me out of facebook... but I was trying to guess her new password.

Anyway... I am now choosing (and I've done a few times today) that every time I am tempted to check her email, guess her password, or in any way check on her movements... that I will choose for peace and strength and faith. Every time I obsess and look I give her power over me. I will not be that person anymore.

Those that do... please pray for me and my family.

(and those that don't... it's not too late to start <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/smile.gif" alt="" /> )

BH (Me) - 38
WW - 36
Married - 16 years
2 children - 10,12
DD1 - 05/30/05 - EA suspected, W wanted space
DD2 - 07/01/05 - EA/PA discovered & confronted WW
DD3 - 07/21/05 - Further contact discovered and now ended.
11/07/05 - exposed to OMW...
07/01/07 - separated to give "space". recovery was not progressing.
09/04/07 - DDAY all over... new OM.

Patience with God is Faith.
Patience with myself is Hope.
Patience with others is Love.