Soolee, I don't mean to chase you away with my eeyore attitude. Then again I don't intend many of the negative consequences my behavior generates.

The reason I am not motivated to get help for my depression is that I have done so many times over the decades and it has made little or no difference. At this point depression has overtaken my motivation to seek help. I am not a try try again fellow. I follow the W C Fields version "if at first you don't succeed, try again. Then quit. No use being a darned fool about it." Was on a poster in my parents' basement for many years.

I do need to get back to the gym. Been intending to for several weeks. Maybe next week. I think the lack of exercise this year may be contributing to my ED problems.

Thanks for all the encouragement. I don't deserve so much support from so many people here.

When you can see it coming, duck!