Oh Hold.

You are having a bad day, aren't you?

(I know, bad day, week, year, decade, etc...)

I'm sorry.

It's not fair... is it?

Not fair to want and to long and to desire and to ache... and to be rejected... again.

Last night, my husband got back from a 3 day trip. Kids and I were sick recovering from teh stomach flu. He wouldn't touch the tv clicker after me because he didn't want to get sick.

I know it's silly, but it hurt me. I told him, "You don't touch me, and I'm longing to be touched. Now you won't even touch the things that I touch. You may have a good reason, but it still hurts me."

I understand your pain, and I'm so very sorry for it. You deserve more. You convince yourself that you are a terrible person so you can try and believe that you do NOT deserve more.

I don' tknow why that falsely comforts us, but it is FALSE comfort.