She hates herself, too, Hold. Not you.

Yep.

What she thinks of you is her business. And I think you lie. You say she'll think you more pathetic when that's what you're thinking of yourself, right after that stock broker's call.

I think you add to the depth and injury she does...you hand her the scapel and guide her hand. You have your part.

You won't nurse your wounds...you won't heal them...so you only see rejection coming from her. When the choice to NOT heal is you rejecting yourself...and she gets the double-blame.

Resentment ties us in knots, poisons our reasoning and uses lies to do so. The payoff is pathetic...

you aren't.

LA