Ditto what Vibrissa and SmilingWoman said.

And I think what you're feeling is totally normal - even if she had gotten on board with recovery, it seems many betrayed spouses definitely question whether they should've just left back at the beginning.

It's no fun no matter how it plays out. Personal recovery from here on - upwards, ever upwards!

Me - 30 (FWW)
H - 30 (BH)
D-day: 2008