Muzac here at work just played a song I didn't want to hear.<p>Heart Of The Matter
Don Henley<p>I got the call today, I didn't wanna hear
But I knew that it would come
An old, true friend of ours was talkin' on the phone
She said you found someone
And I thought of all the bad luck, and the struggles we went through
And how I lost me and you lost you
What are those voices outside love's open door
Make us throw off our contentment and beg for something more?<p>I'm learning to live without you now
But I miss you sometimes
The more I know, the less I understand
All the things I thought I knew, I'm learning again
I've been tryin' to get down to the heart of the matter
But my will gets weak and my thoughts seem to scatter
But I think it's about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don't love me anymore<p>These times are so uncertain
There's a yearning undefined
...people filled with rage
We all need a little tenderness
How can love survive in such a graceless age?
The trust and self-assurance that lead to happiness
They're the very things we kill, I guess
Pride and competition
Cannot fill these empty arms
And the work I put between us doesn't keep me warm<p>I'm learning to live without you now
But I miss you, baby
The more I know, the less I understand
All the things I thought I'd figured out
I have to learn again
I've been trying to get down to the heart of the matter
But everything changes and my friends seem to scatter
But I think it's about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don't love me anymore<p>There are people in your life who've come and gone
They let you down and hurt your pride
Better put it all behind you; life goes on
You keep carryin' that anger, it'll eat you up inside<p>I've been tryin' to get down to the heart of the matter
But my will gets weak and my thoughts seem to scatter
But I think it's about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don't love me anymore<p>I've been tryin' to get down to the heart of the matter
Because the flesh will get weak and the ashes will scatter
So I'm thinkin' about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don't love me<p>Now I can't get it out of my head.

Sorry you are having a sad day. Hope it picks up soon. Until then, {{{{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}}} to you.

(((((((((SCBI}}}}}}}}!!<p>Big Hugs for you... I hope you feel better....<p>Cali

I just went home for lunch and as soon as I got out the office door and into my truck I lost it. Just went home and cried. I don't see how I can do this. It is just imposible. I am going to give it until next Wed. (our next MC session). If she doesn't go to this one I'm going to Plan B. and telling her to get the rest of the stuff out of the house. This is insane, how can someone change so fast.