Hey Hope!! Thanks for asking!! <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" />
I am doing O.K. Best as can be expected. Had a great weekend with WW, kids, Mom & Dad, Sister and her kids. We went to a lake resort in the area just to have fun. It was a well deserved break from all of this mess.
WW has officially ended A! <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" /> Told OM not to call He is emailing her, though, trying to get her to call and using work as an excuse. She has not called. She has emailed him back very business like responses short and to the point. She has not said anything too personal (except for her doctor apt. today <<she is having female problems - I think it is just the stress <I HOPE>.
Her thinking is gradually changing. She has almost stopped trying to make excuses for OM or trying to understand why. She is almost to the point where she is saying "it is over and that is that." She said that she still has hope for them, but not much. She is going through some serious withdrawal, just not as bad as the first time. I am hoping this latest stuff was just a bad bounce.
OM will be out of town this week. I am hopefull that there will be no voice contact and only business emails. He is pushing hard, but I do not think he will call. At this point in time, it is a pride issue for him. He is trying to get her to call and hence communication will start and he will feel like he now has permission to call.
WW and I are doing a little better. Very tiny baby steps. She said I looked cute the other day, and she has started to look at me again in a loving way (just a glance here and there) . She ignored and avoided me a little this weekend, but I am somewhat understanding. I know that this is to be expected in withdrawal.
She still has not put on her ring. This will be the sign that tells me she is ready to work on our marriage. I do not think recovery will be possible until she truly wants to work on us. There is just no real sign right now that this is the case.
Something keeps going through my mind in all of this. Someone posted this and I can not get it out of my head. If she is not ever ready to work on us, then she is just waiting around for the next guy. I do not believe this is the case, but the thought sure does hurt.
Thanks again for checking in on me. I have been very busy at work and I will be out of town for the next two days.
