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Haven't talked to STBX in about 4 weeks, have wanted to call, but didn't. Was hard, just wanted to hear his voice!!
Didn't communicate at all for 2 weeks, then e mailed some about kids stuff!
Was helping YD clean her room today and she had a number of photo's of her dad lying about, and I picked up one of the candid shots that I remembered taking last summer, and I lost it. YD got all worried. I felt so bad!
I emailed my lawyer today and asked him to take three things out of the DV paper work that STBX is having a problem with, so that things can get finished. Just a sad day for me, as I had a fight with my son about not having a job again!!!
My MD is in VA visiting with friends, and I miss her too!! It's probably just PMS time again! The tears just seem to start rolling and I can't get them stopped. I am crying all over the keyboard now!!!!It's a 102 here and I can't even go out to the garden and eat some worms!!! My grandmothers saying for when things were bad!!!
Just another Wednesday, I know!!
Dawn
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Dear Dawn, Sad to hear that you had such a down day. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Frown]" src="images/icons/frown.gif" /> You know children can be a great source of comfort and helps them feel like they can help you. Try letting them comfort you. I am sure a hug or 2 from you kids will help even the wildest of PMS momments. As for the STBX, well he will just have to be a jerk until he realizes the whole world sees a jerk, not just U. Continue to be a ray of sunshine and hope for your family. I am sure they love you more and more. A piece of reassurance that we all need to have in our lives. Hugz, L.
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Dawn,
I'm sorry you are having such a rough day. There are lots of sad days like this that are part of the grieving process. It does get better!
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Hi Dawn, Boy, do I know how you feel. Two years ago I couldn't wait for Valerie to call me, just to hear her sweet voice even if she was lying her [censored] off. Then again you have the stupid excuses for me to call her, "Um, how much food do you put in the cat's dish again"? "Oh, you left this rag at the house and I thought you might need it" You get the point. Flash to present day. I cringe when I see her name come up on the caller ID. We are D and she is living with the her soulmate. Why call your XH? You need advice from me? Kill yourself!!! hehe, just kidding. She wants to remain friends, something she has always done with her XBF's. Doesn't work for me, I thought we were more. Member?... we were H and W? She seems to have always needed a safety net... well Timmy [me] is not there anymore. You wanted me out. I *am* out. Not sure if this helps or was just a vent on my own seeing this. My late father's fav saying was that if you didn't know what to do... go pound sand up your [censored]. That should help. Just being me, the recovered BS me. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" />
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Hey Dawn,
We must be on the same PMS schedule--yuck--wish we could skip these days of the month. Tend to warp your thinking.
Hang in there Dawn...we are GREAT...and we are going to make it...
It is so very hard.....[[[[[[[[[[[[[Dawn]]]]]]]]]]]]]
Are you still coming to MO? I am back up on my feet now...sort of...lunch would be fun. Pat
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Thanks for all for the support, I feel terrible needing my MB buds for such a stupid thing!! My MD called tonight and that helped me some too!! Went and had our nightly ice cream at my folk's, but I had to dish tonight, UGH!! Tomorrow's another day, and I am going out to lunch with mom and a friend!! It just gets me STBX said he would call YD tonight and hasn't yet, MD still hasn't talked to her dad since getting to VA. He is so selfish, wanting, wanting all for himself, he forgets that there are more then just 2 people in this world!!! MnM, glad to hear you are up and about, yes I stillhope to get to MO in August, but will depend on when my surgery is scheduled for!! Will let you know!! Again Thanks all for the support!!! Dawn <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" /> see I am smiling again!!!!
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Dawn,
Hope things look brighter in the morning.
I must be on the same PMS loop as you & Pat.
MY OS & I have been at odds forever. If I think he wouldn't hate me forever I think I have him go live with his Dad & the slut. Right now just 1 wk would be great but he won't stay longer than 2 days if he can.
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((((((((((( Dawn ))))))))))) I was having a great day, but it's been a dreadful night. I think you're right, in that it must be a Wednesday thing! <img border="0" title="" alt="[Razz]" src="images/icons/tongue.gif" /> Karen
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You know it's just one of those things that isn't fair in life, I don't want this divorce but I can't stop it and I have to be nice!! Boy does that suck!! I just want my husband and family back!! But I guess I don't get what I want!! So goes life I guess!!! UGH!!! Dawn <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" />
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Hugs, daybreak...
I'm a week or so ahead of you in the PMS department (see post in Recovery last week)... so I know how you feel there... MUCH more emotional... even cried a couple of times on the way to work...
Are you taking anything? natural stuff? It might help your emotions even out a bit.
Thinking about you and praying...
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Dawn,
I wish I could remember where you were from. Cheer up. It will all be better someday. I hope that you are feeling a little better now. I'm so sorry that you are suffering, stronger, you will be so strong when this is through. Give yourself and your kids a big hug for me. If you need anything ever-than just let me know and I'll gladly give you my home phone.
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Dawn, I'm synchronized with Cali <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" /> . Last week I went to Bible Study, was asked "What were your thoughts on this week's readings?" I said, "I felt really happy--" and I burst into tears. Absolutely no explanation for the tears, cuz I did feel good about the lesson. Oh well. My poor study group is trying to find some meaning in my tears...I finally said, I think it's hormones. The heat has been horrible, I feel tired and heavy from it...and we've got smoke pretty thick in my neighborhood, I think it whisks right about the curves of the mountains to settle in. I'm so sorry your life is taking a turn that is not what you wanted for yourself & kids..and H. I would guess that with the distance and change in environment, he can somehow concentrate on just where he is and what he is doing and forget who he was. It has to be very frustrating and disappointing for you. I'm off for a long weekend, more softball tournaments, but I do work all day both Mon & Tues if you want to stop by. Thinking of you.
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Hugs Dawn!
I hope you are feeling better today! I just got my computer back today and saw your thread from yesterday. Please know that my heart goes out to you. My thoughts and prayers are with you!
Hang in there hon.
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Thanks to all for the great support!! Stupid I know, but I want my mini van back too!!! I seen a navy blue one just like mine today. I guess I associate my STBX with trading the mini van off with shutting the door on us, as long as he kept the mini van there was still hope, traded it off for a 4 door compact right before he went to visit OW for the first time!! I probably should of gotten a summer job so that I wouldn't have so much time to think!! UGH!! Take care all!! Dawn <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" />
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I know how you feel about you mini van.....my h's OW is driving my SUV. I hope like heck it bothers her every time she gets in it!!!
My H's grandmother called me the other day...i just cried and cried after that....it just made me feel good that shestill cared. It just seems like no one else in the family does.
Hope you're smiling today. My divorce will be final on Monday. I am really nervous
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FSA, I talk to my In laws more now then before!! I hope that we will get to go visit them next summer, they will be living in FL by then!! Monday, wow, that's in 3 days. Mine would probably be final too, but my lawyer must be out of town as I have put in 2 e mails and a phone call to him to change the last few things and to sign the papers. It's been about 2 weeks since STBX's lawyer sent the last stuff too me. Oh well!! The girls go there the 31st of July for 2 1/2 weeks. Still wont talk to me on the phone, did call last night and talked to YD. Have been e mailing concerning son, has had some good thoughts. I just don't get!!! Have a great weekend!!! Dawn <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" />
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