Hi
Well I went out again last night, blew H off as we were ment to be meeting to talk decorating plans but when it was arranged h was coming for food, when h rang he was eating with her instead. H is now coming round Thursday night instead - maybe.
H sent me a text this am when he found out I had been out all night moaning that the cats were hungry and I shoiuld have told him I was out. I replied that I had sent him a text so he could let the suppliers in in the am. He asked if I had a good time and if I would be around tonight.
I don't think there is anything in this exchange as when I saw him (I am working at home today) he said he would be staying over more this week. The reason being that h and ow have talked some more and are committed to each other but want to take it slowly and not rush into anything yet, ie live together permenantly. I think they both know that the s is a problem for H. I also found out today that H (or ow) has contacted a proper solicitor.
I am really seeing h in a new light and I don't like what I see. I don't know if there is a future for h and ow, but I am starting to believe that even if he wants me back at some point, that I don't want him. He is so weak.
Anyway, until I really knmow what I want, I will avoid R talks where possible and be nice to h when around but I will not put myself out for h other than continuing to suppoort h in his business. I will go out as much as possible and try to carve out a new life for myself and enjoy it, after all I am not responsible for h anymore and have no other responsibilities, whereas h has more responsibilities than ever and now cannot go out without sorting babysitting etc.
Getting stronger.
HJ
